High 'n Low [Shun]

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— Oh do you? — He cocked an eyebrow not really surprised about Sharaku's confirmation about "swinging both ways". He did guess the man wasn't entirely gay although noticing a preference inclination for men rather women. — Well then, my point stands still. And since I guessed right, my gaydar comparison remains accurate. — That's his pride talking. Even though he didn't know enough about Sharaku, it was nice to guess right at least a few things about him. On the comment about musical industry, well, he wasn't amazed either, although he chuckled at that statement. From their previous encounter at a nightclub, it was clear that Sharaku wasn't into "regular music" — regular meaning, as he said, mainstream here, nor into any contemporary widely spread habits, for that matter — and therefore would prefer an oldfashioned style of music. Who would want to dance waltz on a nightclub playing industrial music, right?

— Really? Am I different to you than what I appear to be? — He replied in a mellow tone, interested in the answer. That was a bit of a dangerous move, the answer could disappoint him pretty much. Honestly, he was more curious than concerned about receiving a belittling output. — Now I wonder. Were you talking by experience before or you're just trying to give me an advice? — He couldn't imagine Sharaku in this kind of event, hitting on straight guys. Shunnosuke, however, had gone through a number of occasions whereupon his unreserved character would put him in a tight spot. Regardless, the teenager never faced any of his approaches seriously enough to be embarrassed by the possibility of a rejection. It was all fun to him and the consequences were never harsh on his side, but who knows.

Subject: Re: High 'n Low [Shun] Mon Jan 19, 2015 3:50 pm

''Either that, or you made a lucky guess.'' He would comment drily, though with an unreadable expression. ''Technically speaking, saying you 'guessed' already implies you weren't completely sure in the first place. Being accurate would mean you needn't make guesses.'' Sharaku's tone would imply he wasn't dead serious with his words, still he couldn't resist saying that. Semantics weren't neccesarily his thing, but he did feel like pointing something out, just because. There wasn't much else he could do, seeing as Shun had managed to guess well enough, not really leaving him room to counter. Ah well.

...the question was troubling, however. How do you answer that? ''I think I don't have a complete thesis on that one yet. Maybe ask again later.'', he'd state flippantly. Maybe he was trying to avoid answering, maybe not. Still, it wasn't easy to just say. There isn't a sure way to know who someone really is, and he was not interested in digging quite yet. That, and he was not decided on what he thought. The younger was a bit over the place. He couldn't really settle on a single opinion at the moment.

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The second question prompted a rather carefree smile. ''I was just stating my opinion. However, it depends on what kind of experience you have in mind. There's a difference.'', he'd respond in a lighthearted tone. Neither of Shun's options had been in his mind when he spoke back then, but he would play along. Besides, the reaction could be amusing, depending on how would the younger take his statement. Talking about this kind of matter could be colorful, when it came to him.

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Shunnosuke rolled his eyes on that comment. — Pfff, fine. You won. This time. — It wasn't easy to drop a debate and concede the fact he couldn't always have the last word on everything. Sharaku had better arguments to end it sooner, and well, the teen was still satisfied with his ability to deduce someone's sexuality by observation most of the time, so he could play along with that. He wasn't truly offended by the fact he couldn't win this time.

In other news, the other topics were far more...amusing, so to speak. He could tell from the way that Sharaku spoke that he was hiding something. A not very pleasant opinion about the teen's character maybe, or a harsh criticism... Unfortunately there's no telling, since the man left it at that on purpose. Well, if he didn't want to answer, perhaps that's a sign Shunnosuke wouldn't want to hear it either. — Fair enough. I can only hope you know me better before forming an ugly opinion about me. — He would retort simply while trying to be indifferent. Deep within, the teen couldn't help but feel pessimistic about what thoughts lie under Sharaku's curls, though. — Anyway, focus. Have you ever hit on someone who was straight and couldn't return your feelings, approaches, lust, whatever you call it? Yes or no, and in case you opt for saying "yes", how did that happen? — A very extense and detailed question that would demand an equally extense and detailed response, rather than Sharaku's subtle and elusive answers. How would he get away from that now?

Subject: Re: High 'n Low [Shun] Mon Jan 19, 2015 5:18 pm

Oh? How unexpected. Sharaku hadn't thought Shun would drop the subject so easily. That was a new one. ''If you say so.'', he'd quip with a whimsical smile. He had no problem with that. It saved him from having to come up with any more pointless comebacks. Not that he minded, since he was comfortable enough doing so, but a prolonged session could get boring eventually. That nonwithstanding, he would be the one to roll his eyes this time, when Shun voiced his hopes. ''Oh, will do.'', he'd say, a bit sarcastically. He didn't mean anything bad by that, no, but the younger was not giving him an easy time with that particular action. It's kind of hard when the teen manages to pull something he does not expect often enough to set him off. It made his opinion float around no less.

''Focus? Sure, just give me at least a decade to do that.'', he would retort, accompanied by a low huff, when Shun took the liberty of detailing his inquiry to extreme levels. Splendid. Not that he was getting why was an answer to that so interesting to the younger. Shun had not answered in that manner when he asked about these things a while ago. Why was his side suddenly so important anyway? Would there be a difference whether the answer was yes or no? ''Yes and no.'', he would say finally, before remaining silent for a few moments longer. If he was frustrating the younger with his answers, it didn't seem like he felt bad about such. ''Literally speaking, yes, seeing as it is far more common for someone you meet to be straight. Theoretically, not really, because to be fair, I wouldn't have called that 'hitting on'. My interest was never really on that level. I couldn't care less. If they were interested, I let them come to me. However, I did not propose straightforwardly enough for it to be considered as me wanting it specifically. I had a few people call me out on swinging that way, but not because I made a suggestion. They just gathered so and felt like making sure I would not try anything. That was just people being overly cautious. I don't make it a point to go farther than the interest I see from the other person. I've never had a reason, seeing as I never sought a long term relationship in the past.'', he'd explain smoothly. He couldn't completely pass over a direct question afterall. Hopefully, this would satisfy the younger's curiosity well enough. ''Is that enough for you, or should I also write an essay?'', he'd add, somewhat taunting. If Shun's intetion had been to make him give a lengthy answer, the teen succeeded this time around.

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Such a long answer he received, huh? He couldn't help but laugh a bit. So Sharaku was scolded for having homosexual tendencies... That was hilarious to picture. — Since I'm gonna be your teacher from now on, yeah, write me an essay. — The teenager said, amidst suppressed laughs and playing along those taunts. He shouldn't really be laughing, however; they were on the same boat in regards to that experience. The difference is that, unlike Sharaku, the teenager probably deserved it...not that it truly mattered to him, his acid and sarcastic replies would get him out of these tight spots with some simplicity. — Well, I can't say I was never called out for that. They were more shocked I'd have the courage to do some approach rather than getting angry for me actually going for it. It was never serious, though, just a mere flirting game, and it never did any harm. — Since his targets for his little teasing were mainly guys around his age, probably sons of his family's commercial partners or association members, it wouldn't be a surprise Shunnosuke's privileged spot in the upper class scenery from Penecia saved him from bigger trouble most of the time. In other news, there was just a part of Sharaku's speech that called his attention more than the rest. Once he was done laughing about it, he became serious, almost bashful, to inquire forward. — Do you have a reason now? To "sought a long term relationship", I mean...

Subject: Re: High 'n Low [Shun] Tue Jan 20, 2015 8:04 pm

Oh? How amusing. ''Are you now? I had no idea I've signed up for a Sex ED class too. I digress however. I doubt there's much you'd be teaching me in that regard. Unless there are 'things' about you I don't know yet.'' Sharaku would jab right back, keeping a rather sweet smile. Let's see whether Shun will laugh about this one too. Oh no, he wasn't bothered by it. After all, he had been throwing out a joke. Besides, he had to admit the teen was rather funny when embarrassed. And maybe he would learn something new here...you never know. Though, he sincerely doubted big things, taking Shun's age in mind.

''Lucky then, I suppose. Not that it ever happened to me, but I know there are people that would go as far as assaulting someone just for being into that. It's like you can't completely avoid extreme haters when it comes to anything that is considered uncommon, or not a standard. Long time ago, I had a classmate that got physically bullied when the rest found out. Sometimes, I don't get the way people think.'', he'd say with a slight huff, before shaking his head. ''Anyway, let's not talk about depressing subjects in the first place.'', he'd add soon after, dissmissing this, sort of. Not that it wasn't an interesting discussion, but it would not make a sunny mood, that's for sure. And he'd rather abstain from blues right now.

When Shun asked his question, he would close his eyes briefly. Eh, good question. Did he? ''Frankly, I haven't given it much thought yet. It'd probably be complicated, but I have no reason to decline as of now. If it seems like a good way to go, I'd be willing to give it a try. It isn't like I know what to expect in the first place.'' He..had never really been against it. He just found no advantage in seeking it, when he never stayed in one place for more than a while. And long distance relationships did not enthuse him at all. That just didn't fit his style. So, he just shoved the idea back up until now. Seeing as he was staying here for an extended period already, there was a possibility. He just hadn't given it serious thought. He had always been okay with people going and leaving...so the prospect of spending a long time with one person was...intriguing to say the least. Yet, he had no idea what would come from it.

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And again, a rare occasion where Shunnosuke had no prompt answer whatsoever. All the other subjects were interesting topics to develop a conversation and all that jazz, but the teenager's mind — as any other normal teenager's mind — ignored everything else and focused on one specific part of that dialogue: the mention to "Sex ED classes". Where did that come from in first place? He wasn't even talking about being a teacher in that respect, but the fact he was now Sharaku's piano teacher. And there he was, too embarrassed to even formulate an answer without removing that dumbfounded look on his face nor erase those thoughts from his mind.
— ...there are. You don't know me fully... — The way Sharaku said it made Shunnosuke feel like an inexperienced kid...which he admitted, deep down, to be. Was he blushing this time again? He better not. One short breath and he changed the focus of his sight to something else, the piano keys, his own fingers softly slipping over them...anything that wasn't Sharaku's face. — ...what about...the other way around...? — He left it ambiguous on purpose, for this was a rare situation the student had qualms to be to straight to the point. Though Shunnosuke wasn't necessarily talking about the "know you" part of the man's speech, but the "teaching" part instead, whatever Sharaku rolls on this, he'd be satisfied. Either way, the teenager wanted to know on which ground they both would stand.

Subject: Re: High 'n Low [Shun] Tue Jan 20, 2015 10:05 pm

Priceless ~ Definitely. A bit of a personal subject, maybe, but totally worth the reaction from the younger. Shun's expression was just hilarious, and Sharaku wouldn't have it any other way. It didn't even really pose a drawback for him, as he had literally no qualms about discussing this kind of subject. It would take a great amount of effort to embarrass him in this kind of talk, and it was fun to make use of that fact. He would chuckle lowly, watching the teen with an amused expression plastered on his face. This definitely hit the jackpot, no denying that.

''Ah, I am aware of that. I was just speculating, coming from your age. Feel free to prove me wrong, however. I'm game.'', he would taunt, with a smug smile. He was sure having fun with this. And as long as Shun remained flustered and flailing around this subject, he was going to hold onto it. These reactions never ceased to be entertaining, and admittably, it served as a good mood lifter as well. When Shun turned away and posed the question, he would cock his head to the side, apparently thinking. Oh, he was getting what the teen meant with it, and was a little bit surprised that Shun had the guts to ask that. He couldn't decide whether it was amusing, or cute. ''Your word is my command, dear.'', he'd state jokingly, snapping his fingers. ''On a more serious note, however, would you really want that? Or maybe I should ask...what all would that include, hm?'', he'd answer, this time addressing the point more seriously, though still teasing the teen in the midst of it. They've already gone through kissing, somewhat. Makes you wonder what did the younger have in mind then. Well, more like, wonder whether it was what he was thinking, or not.

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He would soon see what this was turning into. Sharaku was a tease when he wanted to, and this was just the time for him to take advantage on the fact the teenager was, that moment, just that: a teenager. An inexperienced, atypically modest teenager who doesn't truly know how to handle all the situations despite his efforts to have everything under his control. Although Shunnosuke remained calm — a little recoiled perhaps, but calm nonetheless — in the outside, his heartbeats, if they could be listened, indicated the opposite. Still, he wouldn't back down yet. Not after he was underestimated by his age, not after he heard such...proposal. Kurosawa had his doubts if the older was joking about it all, but even...that was too advanced for him. Not that he disliked it; he didn't. The thing is, even when the teenager felt daring and flirtatious, he never went past a certain point, and therefore he didn't know how to react when that certain point became achievable. Raising his glance fixedly back at Sharaku when the tone of their dialogue gained more serious outlines, now he had his chance to ask directly: — You tell me. You already know what I want...what about you? What is it you have in mind? — And again he wasn't talking about that per se, but...everything. Maybe that included.

Subject: Re: High 'n Low [Shun] Wed Jan 21, 2015 5:41 pm

Eh, that was a little dissapointing. Sharaku had expected to get more of a reaction from the younger. Guess the same trick doesn't work as well when used a second time in the row. It was probably easier to remain calm when the subject was already out there and expected. That was fair enough, as much as he would have loved to entertain himself more. Can't get away with everything after all. However, he would end up laughing under his breath shortly when Shun went and turned his question around. How clever. That, and the fact that he was sort of at loss now. How to answer that one...? He definitely had not prepared for that, and thinking in retrospect, he probably should have. Shun could be rather prodding at times.

He would give Shun a faint grin. ''Well now. There may be only 6 years between us...well, actually almost 7, but I am not entirely sure you'd want to know what is on my mind. To answer though, I can roll with most things, so it doesn't matter as much. And I can't say I know what you want for sure, dear. You may dance around with me, but you have never stated it clearly.'', he'd answer rather offhandedly, sort of spending the time inspecting his nails as he spoke. He was cool with this subject still, even though he had to admit there wasn't really a solid statement he could voice. Oh well, theoretically speaking, he could, but it may, or may not be appropriate. It wasn't as if he could just up and propose anything, seeing as the teen was still technically underage. God forbid him getting into some trouble for saying a thing. He liked to tease the younger around, but he knew there were some limits, at least. On the other hand, he wouldn't mind if Shun brought that kind of discussion up himself. That would change things, somewhat.

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Huh? Age again? Was Sharaku truly bothered about it? He never showed any hesitation or seemed uneasy about how old Shunnosuke is for certain...things. They did kiss already, and not just once or by accident but because they both seeked it, then...why? It seemed like an obstacle pulled out of his sleeve with no solid ground to justify a lack of interest. Should it be truly the case, the teenager's patience would grow thin for these kind of excuses brought up once more. As for the second part...he was just baffled. Does he really have to outwardly say his intentions? The teenager didn't see a point, was always clear enough about what he aimed for. Sharaku couldn't be that dense, could he...?

— Do I have to state it clearly? After everything I've been saying, can't you get a grip yourself? — If Sharaku wanted a complete statement, he wouldn't have it. Not now. Or never. Shunnosuke was prideful and embarrassed to the point stating verbally he wanted to pursue a serious relationship was out of question. — I'm not a child, Sharaku, I know what I want. Whatever you're hiding...I told you before, I can bear it. — Now, what would be Sharaku's excuse? If he was afraid to hurt the teenager emotionally...he already did it quite a few times and Shunnosuke was still there, alive and kicking. If he was recoiled due to Shunnosuke being an underage, should it be truly an issue, they'd sort it out. It's not like how old he currently is affected the sincerity and self-consciousness of his volitions and desires. — ...what's the problem?

Subject: Re: High 'n Low [Shun] Thu Jan 22, 2015 6:54 pm

''.....''

''.............''

...That's it. Sharaku was starting to have enough. Perhaps he played around, but he was no fool. This was beginning to border on ridiculous. First of all, whenever he was vague, and did not state something clearly enough for Shun dear to comprehend, the younger had no qualms insisting on an explanation, or a more direct answer. Yet, when he asked - and mind you he had not not even really asked, just stated an opinion - in the same fashion, he was apparently supposed to figure on his own and be on his way. It wasn't that he didn't get it. He did, but hearing it straight out would be much nicer. What? Was the teen afraid of stating it seriously? That sure showed a lot. Tsk. He was already on a fluctuating mood today, and this helped none.

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''Oh, I can. You needn't worry about that. I was just being unnecesarily curious.'', he would state, his tone rather acidic at the moment. ''Either way, excuse me for not being a mind reader and knowing exactly what you're thinking, and what do you want me to say. Because at times, I feel like that's what you'd prefer from me.'' He was really growing irritated right now. ''And for your information, I am not aware when it came to be that everything I do not elaborate in detail has to mean there's some sort of problem. You ask why should you state something clearly? Well then, if you don't, then I don't need to do so either.'', he would frown bitterly at that. ''If this is the sort of approach I'm getting for not telling you exactly just what your prodding fingers want, then thanks, because I really appreciate that. I've never been a people pleaser, and I don't think I'll ever be. Deal with it as you will.'' Really, he was growing tired of this charade. This was not the first time either. Even just earlier, when he came, the teen was obviously dissapointed about what he came round for. Well, sorry, but he was not prince charming. Not like that. Nor was he interested on being just who the younger expected of him. He was as he was, end of story. Maybe he wasn't good at this whole relationship deal, but that didn't mean he was taking this. He was completely losing the initiative to explain himself when Shun pawed after it in this kind of manner.

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...for some time Shunnosuke had no response to that. Not verbally, nor physically. Nothing. Shunnosuke just stood there, staring at Sharaku's face like there was nothing in front of him and he was gazing into distance. He had his mouth partially opened, perhaps he could defend himself and say something. Anything. But nothing came out of it either. He lowered his gaze to his hands, clenched. When the teenager finally could say something, a single word got out: — ...idiot. — He muttered, still clear enough for Sharaku to listen. At this point it didn't matter which of them was right and which wasn't, who misunderstood what. Those words...they did hurt more than he expected and he didn't deserve it. His gaze switched to the opposite side, so Sharaku wouldn't be able to see the teenager's face. Shunnosuke closed his eyes firmly, he didn't want the other to see him crying and he wouldn't do it in front of him. He never cried in front of other people, no matter how sad and brokenhearted he was. Never. — ...write down your address and leave. My parents may arrive at any minute... — His voice sounded still lower than the usual tone, a bit cold and hoarse as if he was about to cry at any point.

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Subject: Re: High 'n Low [Shun] Thu Jan 22, 2015 9:45 pm

He...what? Sharaku really felt like his brain was going to turn into jelly sooner or later. What was he supposed to do? This was doing nothing to get him less confused with the whole stand. This really couldn't last for more than a while without someone getting upset, or what? He just didn't understand what Shun wanted. At one point, the teen wants to know what the deal is...on another, when he says the truth, it only does as much as upset the other. Well, he sure didn't have magic rabbits to pull out of his hat, that was for sure.

For now, he would swallow that idiot comment, even though it didn't make him feel happy. Nor was he any wiser. Oh, sure, that explained a lot. How was he supposed to know what was going on, when Shun did not bother to tell him what was wrong. Fact was, that he had told the younger a lot already when they were in a sort of opposite situation...but it seemed Shun was intending to keep silent. And that was supposed to help what? Even if he were to try and avoid getting the teen upset...how the hell was he to do that, if he did not know what caused that in the first place? He did not really feel omnipotent, to be honest. Talk about a bumpy ride.

Though, when the younger told him to leave like that, he would narrow his eyes slightly. No. That..''No. I will not.'', he would state decisively, his voice in an almost low hiss. That was not an option. He was not leaving just like that. In the past, he may have said something along the lines of 'suit yourself', and not give a damn. However, that would solve nothing. He was not going anywhere, until the younger enlightened him at least somewhat. Because this wasn't about to work. Idiot or not, he wasn't about to buy that. What good would walking out do? It would solve literally nothing, possibly only make it worse. ''This is not how it works. If you want me to understand you, telling me to get out will do nothing. You obviously don't like the way I act, and what I say....and while you keep asking what's my problem, you never told me anything from your side. I can't even do anything, if you don't consider telling me what exactly bothers you.'', he would say, with an even tone, his eyes closed in thought. ''In case you seriously think simply shoving me out will solve things, I'll leave. But don't expect me to try and amend things, when I have nothing to go on with. I can't pull magic out of thin air in situations like these. No one is perfect, you should know that.'' With that, he would open his eyes, just gazing at the younger solemnly, waiting for whatever. He had his point. It was up to Shun, as to what he'd choose.

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"No, I will not."

Shunnosuke wasn't expecting his order to be rejected right from the start. It was his house, he should leave whenever he implied so! But nevermind that for now, his indignation had little to do with disobedience and more to do with...other issues. Slowly, he turned his head in Sharaku's direction who insisted to keep the conversation going. His facial expression was motionless, but fierce, full of angst and bile. He had reached the point he was avoiding for some time. His snapping point. — Oh, yeah? Then perhaps you didn't listen carefully enough, probably because that doesn't matter to you. Haven't I said enough of how I feel? What do you want me to say then? That I love you? That I want to be your boyfriend? Would me stating it with all letters please your fragile crystal ego now? Would it make you feel better about yourself? — By now, his eyes, like his cheeks, were completely red and tears were running down his not-so-pale-anymore face to his chin, out of his control. Amidst his sobbing, his venom words didn't cease. In fact, all his anger built up and clearly expressed in the way he looked to Sharaku made his continuous speech clear as water: — News for you, I've implied it before, I've said it before, and more than once. If you didn't have enough brains to understand it, that's your problem, not mine, because I never hid it! Meanwhile, you act oh-so-mysterious, oh-so-secretive and whatnot, hesitating to explain whatever thought process you have, that is, until I push your buttons enough for you to spit something, but apparently I have to understand you're like that and got issues of your own that justify you being like that. After all, you've never been a, what is it that you just said..."people pleaser", right? It's fine, I told you before that I won't put the screws to you, and I've been trying. The moment I say it, you get sensitive and make me feel bad for making you cry again, alright. It doesn't matter how supportive, understanding and considerate I try to be to you, you'll always end up judging me and everything I say the worst way possible! And now, just now, you're bringing that age issue out of only-God-knows-where, and I don't even believe in God. You keep giving these crappy excuses, first your damn story of "not knowing how", second, you don't want to "keep upsetting me", and now how old I am, as if I'm some kind of baby. I'm not young enough to be kissed, I'm not young enough to receive sex innuendos, but I am to be loved. Yet you dare asking for "my side"! You wanna know what's my side? That is! All of that! Happy?? Do you understand me now?? — With that being said, he started crying and shaking copiously, sometimes coughing. — ...I've never pursued perfection....but I've never pursued this either... — Shunnosuke rubbed the back of his hands on his face to dry his overflowing tears, with the inelegance of someone who couldn't care anymore, until he gave up and only covered his face with his hands. He had no mood to ask for Sharaku to leave once again, and his constant crying would make it difficult for him to breath, let alone demand the man's departure. It was up to the older whether he would leave or not.

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