Play Time ~ [Mae]

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Fri Sep 11, 2015 5:56 am

"Yeah... This is a very... difficult matter. Jack's wish is great and all, but I just think that perhaps we're better off distancing ourselves from the Event after the Primordials are dealt with? Because from what I understand, we need the angels to defeat them, no?" Mae said thoughtfully... This really was a predicament. On one end, they needed the angels in order to get rid of the Primordials for good... but on the other hand, the event was causing more trouble than it was obviously worth... Perhaps if there was some way to postpone, if not entirely get rid of the event, perhaps mankind would be better off that way... But what did she know? "Yeah... It's very much a blur of different shades of gray rather than the world being just black and white... It's difficult, but hey, not everything is supposed to be a cakewalk. if it was, we would've been done with the Primordials already." Oh, how she wished that... But alas, things were more difficult than just walking up to them and taking them out just like that.

"Well... If it comes down to that... and there really is no other way around it, I'll fight... Regretably so... I do have things to live for. Family, friends and my own goals..." Mae stared off into the distance. Would she really fight her friends to the death on the behalf of an angel? Probably not, but Jack seemed to understand her stance in all this... She remembered his words on this very subject very clearly. "I refuse to let that happen. Mae, you are absolutely right. In the end people who fight under different banners may come to blows... But I won't allow that. Not now, not ever. I refuse to draw my blade against a friend and I know you do too. So don't worry... Even if down the road you find that you're ideals lie with another angel... We'll still be friends, and I promise that I will never fight any of you for a reason so stupid as this. No matter what, we will always stand together. This is my oath..." Jack was a bit corny at times, but he somehow always managed to say the right thing when it really mattered.

"Yeah... I guess I'm just trying a bit too hard..." Mae looked down on her lap. "I'm sorry I dragged you into something like this... It was tactless of me... I guess the idea that someone actually cared for me on that level after what had happened... made me desperate for something..." The girl didn't even dare look him in the eye anymore... She was being honest now. In fact, she had been lying to herself for a long while now... but deep inside, she knew that this wasn't going to work out... But she kept denying it over and over... "I think... It's just me trying to keep the truth away, in a sense... I think a part of me knew this wasn't going to work... But you gave me a chance, despite all of it... I guess this isn't moving on much further than this, then... But I'm glad you at least gave me a chance." She had come to this realization on her own. She didn't know how Sharaku was going to react, but before he could speak, Mae continued. "We're still friends, right?" Mae forced a smile, even though she knew that this made her feel anything but happy... At least they were still friends, hopefully.

"Is it? Oh, I'm sorry..." Mae said apologetically. She really should stop assuming things. "..." She stared out the window, deep in thought over what had just happened... A part of her was still saddened by the realization that it wasn't going to work, but she felt relieved as well... At least they were still friends... Hopefully...

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Fri Sep 11, 2015 9:59 am

Well, it might become a problem regardless. ''Supposedly, we do need them...but that's what they say. There is no definite proof that it is the truth yet.'', he would shrug a bit. Is it possible that the Angels would say that just to make them more likely to join? It could be, but things were hard to prove when everyone was being avoidant. ''I think it wouldn't be easy. We may have to fight the Angels if we decide to ignore the Event. I don't think they would just happily let that happen.'' Or something. But he didn't believe the Angels would just pack up and leave in such a case. That would be too simple compared to how complicated it was now. ''If everything was too easy, people would become lazy.'' Not that extreme difficulty was welcomed either, however.

Hm. Fighting didn't have to be the worst case possible. ''Fighting is not the first choice, yes....but I don't see it as a huge deal, as long as one doesn't equal fighting to killing. You can defeat someone without doing that.'' If done right, it didn't have to be a problem. Their powers didn't cause real injuries most of the time, so a fight could be handled in a sensible way in case it had to happen. That is if both sides were in the same mindset.

He would listen silently as she spoke, waiting until she was finished with everything. Well...technically, he had been right for the most part. Although, he wouldn't have thought she was so...negative about this? They had barely even been together and she was already thinking it wouldn't work. Then how could it? When you're sort of convinced it is fruitless from the beginning, then it is unlikely to actually work. You'll question yourself so much that you yourself won't let it work in the end. And she had been obvious enough that he noticed rather quickly.

''Who do you take me for?'', he would retort almost jokingly. ''I don't quit on people unless they themselves are asking for it. I have no problem with being friends. It's not like I dislike you.'' Just because something happened to her once before didn't meant it would be the same way now as well. He wasn't Charles afterall. But more seriously now. He would walk over closer to her.

''If I remember correctly...it wasn't so long ago when you said you were more of an optimist. But it seems like you're being rather pessimistic over this. If you believe it won't work, then it will most likely not work for real. Your own attitude will drag you down in the end. You should cheer up. Facing a relationship with this kind of view will make it really hard for you. I understand that you're sad over what happened with Charles, but every person is different. You'll push people away yourself if you keep assuming it'll end the same way in case you happen to make even the smallest mistake. Relationships are based on communication, trust and honesty, no? So just be yourself, and you'll eventually find what you seek. I think...that the more you chase after love, the harder it is to actually find it. So don't stress over it so much, alright?''

Seeking a relationship solely because you want to feel cared for would most likely not yield a positive result. Caring is a part of the equation, but it should come naturally, not like that. When you're desperate, people will eventually notice, and most likely back off due to the intensity.

''Besides, you aren't alone, are you? There are different types of care and feelings. Romantic ones are not everything. You have friends for example. Sometimes a friendship can prove to be more memorable than anything else.''

Sure, the idea of having a date was nice, but it wasn't as necessary as breathing. One day perhaps. She was even younger than him, so she definitely had plenty of time to find someone once she wasn't still affected by the past to this extent.

''Don't be. I'm not mad...'' Plus, it was no fun to hear apologies all the time. That just made a conversation weird. ''...Say, what do you really think of love?'', he would turn to glance at her instead of the window this time. Perhaps a random question, but he was curious for a few reasons.

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Mon Sep 14, 2015 5:19 am

"Is that a gamble worth taking? I mean, the angels are pretty strong... Having them fight alongside us would be a great asset..." And that wasn't even her taking the whole "If we can even defeat the primordials" part into the equation... If they could do that, great, but the angels were here to stop the Primordials just as much as Mae was. And working together seemed like the most optimal outcome. She'd rather have the angels fighting alongside her than against her. "Ugh... I really don't like the prospect of that either. Having them all against you seems quite tough. I'm sure someone could pull it off..." Sure, your odds weren't that much better when fighting with an angel, but at least you had that blessing and some allies to rely on... "I suppose so..."

"Yeah... I suppose knocking them out is an option..." Mae said eventually... If they couldn't fight back, then yes, that battle was basically won... But in the heat of battle, there's no garantuees that you can restrain yourself that much to avoid lethal strikes... Luckliy, Mae was a ranged fighter, so she could see someone passing out from afar... People who fought close range didn't have the luxury of that.

"Eh? Well... Yeah. That would be a nice solution..." Just being friends was okay for her too. As long as she wasn't left behind, anything was okay with her really...

"Well... I suppose I said that yes... I dunno. I used to be doing that a lot but sometimes... it's difficult to do so."

She sighed deeply before continuing. "I... just lack confidence in it, I guess... I think... it's one of those "It's not you, it's me." scenario's going on here... But... I guess I should cheer up a bit huh? Moping doesn't get you anywhere..." Well, what he was saying did make sense... Maybe she should really stop trying so hard? "I'm sorry it had to turn out like this... I ruined the mood, didn't I?" She attempted to smile, but failed miserably.

"Thanks for the pep-talk... I really needed it." Mae smiled back at him, with a slightly longing gaze... Oh, how badly she wanted to kiss him right then and there... But this was supposed to be a normal friendship right now, not anything else... Well... Could she resist it?

"Sharaku... I'm sorry..."

She'd whisper in advance before kissing him gently, and quite quickly... As a slight thanks for putting up with her stuff for this long... "I'm sorry... I..." She fell silent after that, looking out the window. It had been sort of random, but... She just couldn't resist it... How was he going to react? Hopefully not negatively.

"Hrm? What I think? Well... To be honest... It's been nothing like I first thought... But maybe it's just me being too eager. I have to work on that. But the feeling's wonderful though..." Well, yes obviously. But She wasn't sure on what she thought love should be... Perhaps that's why she failed? She just didn't know what she wanted out of it?

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Mon Sep 14, 2015 2:58 pm

He would snort. Strong, yes. But not strong enough to avoid causing trouble. The fact that they had to go save Israfel and Teshub from the Corruptions proved the Angels weren't as great as one would say. If they fell so easily to an invasion, what did it say about them? ''Maybe so. I don't think they are as strong as they claim. Two Angels fell very easily after the Primordials invaded their worlds. We had to go and attempt saving them, otherwise they would have been in great trouble. One of them even ended up dead due to that. The fact that they caved in so quick, and in the end we were the saviours kind of points out that they aren't so superior.'' Plus, while the controlled Angels were fairly strong...it wasn't that bad. If it was an estimate of their strenght, then they weren't such a big deal. A few people could easily disarm one. If strong enough, even one person alone might be able to. ''I could see it as a problem if all attacked you at once. But it's kind of obvious they won't, since they're comfily sitting in their worlds and waiting. And one by one, I think it's very possible to take them on. Someone would just have to stop thinking about it, and actually give it a go.'' Maybe one day, it would be necessary. As much as it wasn't fun to have to harm other living beings. Yet, they kind of asked for it anyway.

He would shrug a bit. ''I'm not saying you have to, but I think being too passive in this matter could be the end of you in case a fight does break out. Not every person is nice enough to understand that you don't want something. They won't all care.'' And someone hesitating to do anything would pose as an easy target to take out first. No one promising they would keep her alive in the end. Having to fight was painful, mainly when forced to...but, would you rather lie down and give up instead?

He would listen quietly, before shaking his head a bit. ''I suppose that it's partially my own fault as well. I could have said no to begin with, and let you deal with your problems regarding Charles first...but I don't really like making people upset like that...and I knew you would have been. I should stop doing that sometimes.'' He wasn't really that dumb. He kind of knew even back then that it wasn't the best idea to bounce from one date to another when you didn't really make a definite line after your old feelings yet. But he let her try, mostly because she seemed sad. However, it couldn't keep going in this direction. That...and if this was any close to her general attitude, they probably weren't even a good match for more that perhaps good friends. He would start to get either bored on mildly uncomfortable soon enough...if it was all to be about her worrying a lot, and trying to be caring. He did appreciate the notion, but he needed more of a push and pull to be entertained by a person, and actually want to spend a lot of time with them by his own decision. Otherwise, he'd be doing it just because it is the right thing to do. And that's not what a real relationship is about. ''I'd say...that might be the problem. Confidence is important in gaining people's attention. As long as it doesn't tip into arrogance, that is. If you're mopey, and view things negatively...why would someone want to stand by your side? There's no charm in having a pessimistic partner. It drags the other person down as well with time. Not that I mean to offend you...'' But that's how he felt about it. Being a ball full of insecurity...wasn't exactly a trait one would find very attractive, no? It just...sounds bad for a relationship. ''It's fine..I'm quite used to this I guess...'' It wasn't like many of his ties with people didn't end on rocky terms or anything like that. He could deal with it. You can't have everyone by your side, as people simply have differing interests a lot of time.

''???????''

...eh? Well, this once, she actually caught him off guard. He didn't really expect this off her after she had been acting the way she was the whole time. Was this a good thing to do? Well, he had no idea...but technically he didn't really care either. It had been her call afterall. But she might have bitten a bit more than she could swallow. He was generally a nice person, yes, but that didn't make him a cuddly kitty, and he wasn't always the one to act in line.

Well, she wanted this, yes? He would smirk thinly, using one hand to hold her in place, not really letting her move away so quickly. Perhaps he had no severe interest in a more emotional relationship out of it, but this he could do. Except for the fact that there was a difference. For one, he did have more experience than her. Two, he wasn't as gentle as that. Right now at least. But things would be boring without a little action, no? Regardless, he would let her go after a short while, with an almost playful grin.

''It's fine ~''

Or maybe he was just messing with her. Hard to tell with that kind of attitude. But that's who he was. She probably didn't know him as well as she may have thought. Now how would she take this was up to her.

He would sigh somewhat. ''Well...it takes both sides to make it work. I still have no idea what exactly the feeling is all about. I do like people...but nothing more than that. Not yet at least.'' Maybe he just wasn't lucky enough? He could see why to an extent...most people didn't really have a personality he would click with well enough. It was just a bit eh considering how people way younger than him knew more of this than he did. Not that it's a bad thing to be alone at 20+, but it does start getting complicated eventually. But that was something he'd have to deal with on the go...

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Mon Sep 14, 2015 5:18 pm

"I suppose so... Either that, or the Primordials are much more powerful than we thought..." Well... There hadn't been another corruption in months, so... maybe things were slowing down? Or had the two siblings moved onto something else? Seeing as both the corruptions had been thwarted... "Would we be equal then?" Equal might be stretching it, but they weren't that much stronger than anyone with powers that had used them for a while... "Hrm... I wonder what it's like... I mean, when I met Angel... Something felt different when I met her... Would fighting an angel affect you?" Well, they seemed rooted somewhat to the special powers people possessed... At least Personas.

"I'm sure when that day comes... I'll be ready for it, but as I am right now... I dunno..." Well... Hopefully she didn't have to fight anyone she really really cared about, like Jack, Rin or Sharaku... That would just be all kinds of bad in every sense of the word. "Who knows... I might be seeing things differently once the time has come for me to pick a side... which is probably going to be pretty soon..."

"Well... I don't think it's much your fault for giving me a chance... I'm actually really grateful for that." She'd say with a gentle, genuine smile on her face. "It's the little things." Well... If it wasn't for him... she wouldn't be sitting with him here... She would have no place to say... She'd be sleeping out on the streets most likely... Oh geez. "Yeah... I dunno how I would go about that though..." She'd say, with the face of a girl that had lost herself in an amusement park... Unsure of herself. Where to go, and what to do? "W-What do you mean?" Mae asked, somewhat confused.

Oh... Sharaku? What are you...?

Mae was honestly not expecting that... He stopped her from going back... with that little mysterious smirk too... She was a little... perplexed as to what she should do next... On one end she could try to move away... but at the same time, she had made the first move... it would be kind of odd to just stop... Mae looked straight into his golden eyes for a moment while she thought what she actually wanted... Eventually, the girl made up her mind. Mae wrapped her arms around him, closing her eyes as she slowly kissed him again... In that moment, Mae felt truly free of worries and everything. No more stress, no more expectations, no more worries about people dying... Sharaku was everything for her at that time...

She would eventually move away from him, but still, not removing his arm from her... She honestly didn't mind it anymore... "..." Mae was speechless... She really had no words to express the confusion mixed with a wide variety of both positive and negative emotions she felt right now... She wasn't really expecting Sharaku to say anything either... She had just made things quite... complicated, to say the least... She wasn't the greatest kisser by any means... but this one she would probably remember for the rest of her life... "Well... At least I'm not alone on that... heh..." She'd say, somewhat relieved...

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Mon Sep 14, 2015 7:13 pm

''If so, then the Angels are being rather selfish in asking us to defeat them. While they themselves fail to defend themselves quite easily.'' The Primordials being powerful was a fact. Them being stronger than the Angels was also a fairly easy guess. In which case it was a little unfair to ask humans to deal with them. That's just like doing the dirty work for the Angels. Thankfully for them, Thesis and Ananke decided to mess around here as well, so it was their business to an extent, as much as they never asked to be involved. ''Don't know. I'd say it depends on the individual. Some may be on the level to be equal.'' Not everyone had the same amount of skill and power afterall, so you couldn't answer something like this in general. He would frown in thought. ''Not sure. I've fought Angels when they were corrupted before and I don't feel any different....although Angel herself is a bit different from the rest of them, so maybe that's why...'' On second thought, he never really felt weird around them? Or maybe he just had thick skin and didn't notice too much. Whichever.

''Well, good luck in making a decision. That one is your own.'' As much as it would be beneficial for everyone to stick together, there was no way to make that reality. People were diverse in their ways of thinking, and they would always be. Unless an Angel went and changed that, of course. And hopefully, that was not really going to happen.

''Maybe...I just think that dragging it out is more likely to make it more painful. That's all.'' Then again, people reacted differently, so maybe it wouldn't be a big deal with her. Time would tell, perhaps. ''Perhaps start by keeping a positive outlook even when things seem not so good?'' That was just a suggestion, however. He knew it wasn't easy to keep your confidence up all the time, so he wouldn't really blame her. But it was sort of true that being down like that might make it worse for her to get an actual date that would work smoothly. He would sigh. ''I've never had an easy time making emotional connections with people, so this isn't really all that new for me. That's what I mean.'' The other things were fine, but that one part tended to elude him more often than not.

Ah? Well, wasn't this surprising? He would have thought she would move away once she could, not do that. Hm. Thankfully for her, he didn't really have a problem with it. While he wasn't that much of a fan of doing this just because nowadays...it could be entertaining at times. He could handle it. He'd just hope she wouldn't end up regretting being this eager. To be honest, he was just doing what she asked for. She was the one to start this afterall. Regardless, he'd play along. Mostly. He would go out of his way and bite her lip. Well, not enough to draw blood or anything, but enough for her to feel that. It seemed he was sizeably amused by this situation for whatever reason.

He would quirk an eyebrow after she pulled back. ''Enjoying yourself? I didn't think you were the type to do this even though you know where we stand.'', he'd remark in a somewhat teasing tone. Afterall, they had sort of agreed they'd remain just friends, yes? Therefore, this would make it her only being after the 'fun' part. Logically speaking. Although he didn't think she really viewed it that way. ''Hm? So then, what did you feel towards Charles or me?'' The way she put it suggested she didn't really know love much either. But she did act contradictory to that befoe, such as claiming that she loved him.

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Tue Sep 15, 2015 12:02 pm

"Do they have much of a choice?" Mae asked, looking at Sharaku. "I know, it's a bit selfish, but from their perspective, they don't have much else of a choice if that's the case..." But then again, no one really understood how the Corruption process worked... All of them had been so sudden that... There had been no warning beforehand... They couldn't have stopped them. "Oh? You think so?" Well, that was an interesting thought... Not that Mae would ever seek that much power on her own, unless it was truly necessary for her to do so in order to protect what she held dear... "Huh... Well, I dunno what the other angels are like yet. I've only heard of some... Never actually met them eye to eye." She would like to at least. They were an odd bunch... Different from humans yet... they looked very much like humans themselves...

"Yeah... it is. Thanks." It was her choice... A choice which she would have to make when the time eventually came. As for when that would be, she had no idea.

"Well... I would be lying if I said that the little time we did spend together didn't mean anything to me, because it does..." Sharaku had been very kind and understanding towards her... Heck, even now, when Mae was telling him all this, he still kept up the same attitude as before, kind and understanding. Maybe that's what she liked so much about him? The fact that he didn't look down on her because of her choices and actions... "Yeah... It's not always easy though..." She sighed somewhat... "I dunno why I just told you all of this... It just... I knew what kind of effect it would have, and yet... I just couldn't keep denying it." She would look at him with a slight frown. "It's not you who's at fault here... It's all me, Sharaku... You did nothing wrong..." Mae looked straight in his eyes when she said this. What could she had done differently...?

"Yes..." Mae looked away shyly... "I'm just really confused... And rather torn as to what I should do..." A large part of her wanted to give this a second chance, and yet an equally large part of her wanted them to remain friends... "It's difficult to put into words, but... A part of me doesn't want to let go of what could potentially be... and the other wants to move on... It's vexing. I'm not asking directly for a second chance or anything... When I kissed you... I... I...!" She couldn't finish the sentence... She just couldn't... All she could do was looking at him, slightly ashamed...

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Tue Sep 15, 2015 1:59 pm

''There's always some choice, is there not? But it doesn't seem like they're even really trying to find a different way. We could all start crying about how we're not strong enough, can't do it and just sit on our butts instead too. Do we? On the other hand, they seem fairly content to keep following their made up rules despite the fact that it's getting really bad nowadays.'' Plus...what choice were humans given in this? Basically almost none. It was either follow this forced Event, or go to hell. Was that the right approach? And the Angels mostly only cared about getting their things done, first and foremost. ''Why not? Do you think humans are weak?'' If they were, then there would be no point in fighting at all, since they wouldn't even have a chance. He would shrug. ''They are both similar and different from each other. Wouldn't say they're too special.'' Humans were diverse too, and no one stopped to admire that. The Angels were maybe deities, but that didn't make them amazing. Not unless they actually proved there was a reason to hold them in high regards compared to other beings.

He would smile thinly. ''Yes. Afterall, it's harder to let go of something when it starts meaning something, no?'' That wouldn't happen so easily otherwise. He would look to the side. ''I'd say it's better than lying, because that wouldn't make it false anyway. But I don't think you should keep blaming yourself. We may simply not be a good match, and that's not something one can blame themselves for.'' Despite the fact that she did go over the top with her insecure acting now...he didn't think it was that far from what her normal personality was. It was just less noticeable normally. But if a break up unbalanced her like this, then it meant she had to be to some extent even before. It wouldn't just suddenly happen.

''Is it the same, however? One can do the physical stuff regardless of whether they have feelings for the other person or not. It doesn't always equal. Regardless, it's up to you. I can't decide for you. You'll have to know what you want first, before anything can be done.''

What could he say? It was her own battle to face in the end. And he would refrain from giving judgement until she was actually sure of what it was she wanted out of him. Going into something like this on a whim can potentially cause more bad than good. He already had that happen before.

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Tue Sep 15, 2015 3:27 pm

"Depends on the situation... But I don't know how they think." Mae shrugged lightly. "Either way, we're now in this sticky situation regardless... We just have to make the best of it, and pray that our best is enough." As far as the rules went, Mae only shrugged at that. She had no idea why they were so adamant about the rules now... Especially considering that everything was going to hell in a handbasket... "I dunno... I haven't actually seen the angel's power first hand... But if they can truly change the way the world works on such a fundamental level, then I'd say they are plenty powerful..." Was there really much of a difference between angels and humans? Mae had very little experience with them, having only meeting Angel face-to-face... And even then, she felt like she was... so different from herself, or any other human. Just exactly what it was that made her different... was difficult to put a finger on, but there was clearly something. Even Sharaku couldn't deny it.

"Yeah... It's letting go that's always the hardest part..." She had to do that herself as well... But she didn't want to... "..." She remained silent after Sharaku's response. She knew that blaming herself for it wasn't healthy... She just couldn't shake the feeling that she was the one to blame, somehow...

"I... Don't know... are they?" She would ask, not sure what else to say... "Would you be... okay with something like that...? Having a friend who could kiss you like a lover would?" She asked quietly, looking up at him.

"Why didn't you push me away when I kissed you though...? I... Don't understand..."

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Tue Sep 15, 2015 4:15 pm

''Hard to tell what they think when they keep playing mind games with us.'' And who's fault was that then? One can assume, but can't know what someone else thinks for sure without being told and clarified. However, the Angels were a bit too adamant on remaining mysterious with many things. He would shrug. ''I don't think it's the Angels themselves that are making the final change. To be honest, I'm not too impressed so far.'' Not with the way the situation was going. For being special, the Angels knew how to be lackluster. He wasn't sure he would trust them with his life in the end.

Hm. He would click his tongue. ''That's what they call friends with benefits, no? And I don't know. Technically, I've done this before. Just not exactly like this. I wouldn't say it's the best idea ever, but that depends on circumistance, I suppose.'' It could be nice for a while, perhaps. But trouble arose when one side wanted more out of it, and the other was simply content with staying at that. It generally probably didn't last long due to differing expectations. And it had a higher chance of having the people involved hurt and drift apart once it became too much to handle. Frankly, he had never done it like this. There's a difference between the other person being someone you will pretty much never see again afterwards, and someone you'll keep meeting even if it happens to blow up.

Golden eyes would flicker in thought, before he'd just shrug. ''You wanted it, so I went along. I suppose I'm simply not so bothered by the idea. It's not my first time anymore, so I don't exactly have that much to lose.'' That...and he did find it a bit amusing to watch her reaction. Regardless, could she complain? She was the one to start it. Nor did she take the chance to pull back after the first time. If she was bothered by him letting it happen, she could have stopped herself.

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Tue Sep 15, 2015 4:45 pm

"Yeah..." There wasn't much else to say on this point, so Mae just shrugged and moved on. "Well... I guess we will find out eventually, no?" When that time came, the angels were the focus of everyone's attention... What could they do? Did they just speak empty words? Mae doubted it, but... There was always a slim chance that none of it may come to pass... And first, they had Thesis and Ananke to deal with... Once the world was safe, they could focus more on the Event itself.

"Hrm... I guess it would be kind of nice, in it's own way... I could give it a shot... Not sure if it's gonna work out very well." Might as well, right? "So... I suppose that's okay for us both then?" She would ask. A faint smile was slowly returning to her face once more... She would be careful about this though... She didn't want either Sharaku or herself to get hurt over this... "Just... Don't be too rough with me, okay? A short girl can only handle so much." Mae said with a light giggle.

"Well... I guess the reason I didn't pull away... Was because... Well... I just couldn't resist... And when you stopped me from going back... I just let my heart do the rest... It sounds a bit weird, I know..." Mae fell silent again, not sure what else there was to say... She had kissed him, and it felt good, she couldn't deny that... Was this really how things were going to go?

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Tue Sep 15, 2015 5:35 pm

He would just frown a little. ''By that time, it might be a bit too late.'' He would leave it at that though. No one enjoyed being dragged around with confusing words. Once it came down to it, would people really want to trust the Angels? Is it fine to trust someone who just makes you waltz around, and possibly hurt yourself? There were perhaps a few positives, but he didn't see it too brightly for the Angels. Not the way it was going.

He would huff. ''I can take it or leave it, to be honest. Are you sure, however? This could mean you'll make yourself stuck in case you wanted to actually date someone. Doubt a person would be happy to hear you're doing something like this on the side.'' And even if, this would have to end once either of them decided to pick up something more serious. You can't really play two games at once. It could easily become a double edged sword. Was it really worth it to risk? He knew he could most likely handle it. He was aware of where this could lead. But he wasn't sure what exactly did she aim to get out of this. He would snort. ''I can't guarantee anything. This is your first time for things like this, am I right? Can't say I really know the limits.'' He wouldn't deny he could get a bit careless at times. That, and it was harder to feel obliged to keep check when it wasn't even a real relationship. He could he a bit too much for her to handle. He was the type to be playful, and that didn't usually go well with first timers. Unless he put in extra effort, that is. And he felt a little awkward in such cases as well. He was pretty sure they viewed what happened now quite a bit differently already. He didn't fuss over it a lot. He did enjoy physical contact, yes...but the blatant kind was not really what he aimed for most of the time. It was just....

''Weird....maybe so. For me at least...I usually don't really see things that way...'', he would mutter faintly. It was probably the fact that it made a rather big difference for him, as to whether he had real romantic feelings for the person or not. If not...then it tended to be more of a game to him. It was amusing to play around, and see how the other side reacted, but...it didn't do too much to him specifically. It probably wasn't very nice of him...but that's just how he felt. He needed a certain level of an emotional connection for it to mean more to him. And even then, he was still the type that liked to play with things. Just in a slightly different manner.

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Wed Sep 16, 2015 7:15 am

"Well... All we can do is try to save our world... if we don't then this whole event has been for nothing anyway..." Besides, the countless number of lives that were in their hands... They couldn't just stop fighting Thesis and Ananke... Her real parents were out there somewhere... Their lives were in her own hands as well... If they were still alive that is. Once this was all over, Mae would go find them... She had a lot of catching up to do.

"Depends... If either of us finds someone else... then it's only fair to tell the other about it, right? I won't blame you if you find someone else..." She really wouldn't... It would be a bit sad if she was left behind, but as long as he was happy... "Well... There's only one way to find out, no?" She smiled faintly back at him. "Being my first time with something like this is a bit intimidating, in a way, yes... But... I'll manage." She would have to... Who knows, she might actually really enjoy this?

"Heh..." She smiled sheepishly at him, scratching the back of her neck. Then the ride came to a halt, followed by the doors opening... "I guess that's what I really like about you... You never look down on me for what I do or what I say..." It was a reason to like him, yes... But was there a reason for her to love him...? Perhaps some day she would find one... "Now then... Let's move on... Where to next?" She'd ask him with a slight giggle. The date wasn't over yet... Unless Sharaku called it quits right then and there... Regardless, she was going to have fun with him...

~ End of Scene from Mae's point of view ~

Subject: Re: Play Time ~ [Mae] Wed Sep 16, 2015 5:55 pm

''Obviously enough.'' What choice did they have? It would be sad to just give up now after all this, would it not? That would be rather cowardly, and counterproductive after they already fought so much to get where they were now. They could just keep pressing on and hope for the best possible ending. If nothing else, at least. Because no one was making it easy for them. Not even now when it was getting worse and worse.

He would look at her contemplatively. Honestly...he didn't know what to think. Why did she want this? Because if she was doing it in hopes that it would give her a better chance to turn it into an actual relationship later...he wouldn't say it's a good idea. He could actually see it turning things more awkward. That...and was it a good thing to rush it and have her first experiences be this rather than a working relationship? She still kind of gave the impression that she took it mostly because she couldn't let go, and chose to go for the next best thing, because he didn't really push her away. But that wasn't a solution....He could take it, yes, but he wasn't way too keen on it. Most likely, he would end up being skittish about this. It didn't feel like she was jumping in for a good reason, considering her position. ''If you're only going for this because you don't want to let go, then I think you shouldn't. It's not very memorable to have your first times be like this. That's what I think, at least.'' It felt a bit forced, in a way.

He would smile thinly as he walked out. ''I don't if there isn't a reason to...'' It wasn't like he wasn't capable of putting someone down when it felt appropriate. It depended on circumistance, but he would state his opinion when needed, even if it was sometimes a bit harsher. Coddling wasn't always the way to go. People should be able to take some criticism at least, and not get immediately butthurt. Maybe it just means they could do something to better themselves, instead of being meant as a negative. So he would speak when he found it useful. Regardless of that... ''Wherever you want.'' He wasn't feeling too picky. As long as it wasn't something crazy...

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