Reading is fundamental, like comics ^-^ [Sharaku}

Trying not to die? You meant the angel thing that you went off on searching with Rita? How did that go anyway? Did you find anything or anyone?” Hyde would ask that question briefly as he briefly goes in his bag to touch his cape. “Well, this is practically the source of my strength. It makes me strong, or it makes me feel strong anyway. So I kind of like to wear it when I can, you know?’ Though , he wondered if there was anything that went on with sharaku that he hasn’t been telling him. “Was there anything other than that? I mean, the awakening for Alphonse was successful, but pretty dangerous. I had a few close calls.

“Oh, that was a backstory flag. No? Suit yourself…” If sharaku didn’t even want to hear about the cape’ significance, why would Hyde waste his time telling him a story sharaku already didn’t seem too interested in?” ”Yea, Rita told me mostly everything that I wanted to know about your little trip, I’m just stupid that this wasn’t something that you felt like I should know. If the shadow were getting harder, don’t you thin a team of three would have been better than two. But the past is the past.”
Hyde would then sit on the couch. “Are you going to be specific on the attempt on your life or. “

Ahh whatever man, i didn't want to talk about it anyway. Now isnt the time for sad stories and you aren't tge type to host a pitty party“ Hyde moved on from it, and his cape never made him forget it. “I get these messages from the velvet room. Just like the awakening with naomi, the dark corners of their past take form and turn into shadows. If we leave them alone for too long, nobody knows. But we wouldn't want to find that out...right?“ hyde explained a bit more. Alphonse killed his creator, simon. He was the first dark memory we saw. After beating him..we travelled to maria.. He was resolved then...afraid of the result if maria was told the truth.. But it all changed... And he prepared himself for it...whatever day he chooses to tell her.“ hyde then concluded the story.

“shun was a bit shaky but got over the whole robot killer thing eventually...naomi didnt show up..al me and shun fought shadow alphonse as a team...and there are the details.“

This time, hyde made eye contact. “you are a grown man. I don't govern your actions. You can do whatever and hang with whoever...and ill do the same. I was only asking out of curiousity and concern..please tell me if im caring too much“

After a while, hyde asked.“ well.. How did you take care of your pursuer?

“No, I would want to talk about it.  But how exactly do you just go into a random story that’s completely off subject to comics and cake? It wouldn’t even make any sense to simply jump into something like that. So no, I didn’t say that to be spiteful. I felt you was indifferent towards it anyway, so I dropped it all together.   I guess there is a time and place for everything. “ After his explanation, Sharaku did say that Hyde should explain in  a way that makes sense. “Does anything make any sense anymore? I come from a different world and you was experimented on as a child. The most illogical explanations for others are all more believable to us. I tried to explain to  you to the best of my ability, I’m sorry if I don’t sound like Morgan Freeman. “
Though, Hyde did have something to add on the comments of expressing himself. “I’m always expressing myself. Cooking, writing poetry, playing my guitar,  simply running or messing around in Lunapa. All of those things are something I use to express myself.” Hyde frowned when Sharaku  told hyde that he card during the wrong times. “Maybe I just have bad timing, it’s not like I do it on purpose. “ He blinked when sharaku said that he fought “her” so his assassin was a woman?” I’m assuming you won. What then? Did you put her in an ice block somewhere or? How did she find you? Tracking device

Well, I’ pretty happy that you won. I wouldn’t want you to be taken from me as well. “Hyde would then start to frown a bit. “I already had to see one of my friends get buried this year. I still don’t know what happened to him, or why anything should happen to. Just reminds you that life is cruel, but…” Hyde then patted Sharaku on the shoulder. “I’m glad you came back man, I really am. “ After that small mushy moment, Hyde sat back on the couch and sighed a bit. “ You make it sound like she’s still around, I hope she doesn’t come after you anymore with violence. “ After that, hyde looked around for the cat again. ”That kitten sure is quiet.”

OOC: I felt like trying today, enjoy.

“Alright, alright, i'll slow down and answer everything. I only go over  it because I figure that since you gave your point, we could just move onto the next topic. It’s exactly how I perceive things, so I do It instinctively without even noticing most of the time. But  ok, I’ll do it his way then.” Hyde cleared his throat before continuing, he also closed his eyes.”  For the cape thing, I had no idea what my reaction was supposed to be. I didn’t recognize how to bridge into it,  besides the fact that superhero comics and reading about superman and his red cape can transpire over to me holding a crimson mantle, but it’s a great deal more elaborate because I actually obtained it from a very special friend a long time ago. Wearing it is nothing more than a confidence booster and a reminder that I’m not completely hopeless, worthless or useless. There is always something that I could manage or attempt to do, and that any average joe can be a hero if they try. You make the most of your life  and do what you can for others, the genuine kindness of your heart becomes a guide, and eventually a beacon. “

Though, Hyde was a little reluctant to explain. “I want to point this out before I go on. Sometimes when I try to get my point across as much as I can, you make it seem like I talk too much. Then when I talk less or skip over things, now it looks like I’m being inconsiderate. When I take the time to fully explain things, I’m not expecting to get burned for it, make up your mind.  You ask for a detailed account with two sentences,  the cliché of strong, silent type who lifts weights on Thursdays and grunts occasionally, that’s not me. Anyway….” Hyde trailed off, but he proceeded to explain some more.

“I was actually the last person that Alphonse told about his past and I replied that I also killed for the sake of others and my own.  My happy exterior is only me repressing the fact that I feel as if I’m a bad guy that’s only pretending to be someone that I’m not. I’m even attempting to find out what’s genuine about myself, perhaps I just succeed in annoying and frustrating people because that’s not who I truly am? Anyway,  we talked about it and  then he randomly called me up to face his shadow with him.  His creator had a wife, I had no idea what happened to her because we never got to fight her, but Alphonse’s shadow called her mother. There could of been a chance that she was significant in his life and maria’s as well, but now we will never know unless we ask him directly.  Shun was conflicted through the entire ordeal  of what Alphonse did until the end, resolving himself that he was more human than robot and bore  the sins of his past, as well as the burden of having to potentially tell Maria the truth about her family.  I was apathetic, because I felt like I was the most stained, that I had to strain harder to be positive and hopeful, and that I couldn’t judge anyone.  Against all odds, we bonded, and we saved Alphonse’s soul from self-corruption by his shadow, and helped ease his suffering a bit. “

Hyde then went over the expressing himself part. “ I could do it that way, but it would be long and unentertaining, which I feel spoils the mood. If I explain it like this, you might be bothered about how long it is, which implies I can’t deliver the goods, then I normally pick the option which makes me appear like an idiot instead of talking peoples ears off about matters they might not even care about, even though I get along. Lastly, I do mean it, I am glad you came back. Nilo Lockwood, my acquaintance, was murdered under mysterious circumstances and he is a part of Jack Rannell’s team. No one told me anything, as if no one knows anything, which troubles me because I believed him to be in the right hands, I trusted his judgment. He wanted to change,  and he died before accomplishing his goal, I can sense the regret,  and I want to mourn, but I can’t because the worlds in danger and many more people will end up like him if I don’t keep pressing ahead. I’m pressuring myself to be numb to the demise of my friend, and I would have gone down if I lost you too. So yes, I mean it. asshole....“

With a deep sigh, Hyde opened his eyes and rubbed the side of his brain. “ Too bad, I like animals. Some other time then.”

There’s assuming and then there’s asking questions for answers that you should already know. We been friends for a while and I still struggle with the right and wrong things to say to you. No one would ever take the time to keep asking question without venturing out and trying to figure things out on their own. I think it’s rather disappointing that we managed to get this far and I still can’t get that right. Wouldn’t life be easy if we was provided the answers for everything. What you might consider as inconvenient is what I call “The learning experience of simply living”. Maybe your right, it bit me in the bub most of the time, but I still dream of a day when I’m right about something I guessed and it actually impresses you.

As for kindness, you might call it a double edged sword. What of Shun’s kindness towards lewis Rhodes, calling out to thesis to pare his life, a man who was going to sacrifice a child for his own self benefit. What of that? Was there any guaranteed logical gain for his actions? Sure, he managed to find out something, but at that moment, shun offered kindness to the less than likely individual ad maybe you could even say that he got lucky for it. What do you think of that? Is that all it is? Luck?

Hyde played with his hair a little bit, much like nilo used to do with the past. “Well, look at it this way. Would you consider yourself as a whole of a person, or half of what we see on the outside? My mixed signals isn’t as complicated as having two different personalities or being two faced to a degree, each situation I find myself faced with doesn’t get the same result , the way you interpreted my reactions to them is the same problem that I have with you, simply asking instead of playing the guessing game. But that doesn’t make sense, should you as every second if that person cares about something while you continue to ask them? You either act and bite the bullet, or take a stance that’s neutral enough so that nobody gets hurt in the exchange, but at the same time nothing changes.

Hyde sighed again, this was going to get complicated. “Maybe it’s because that I want to be the happy go lucky guy? You keep doing it enough in hopes that it will become genuine someday, I’m not wishing for anything bad or immoral, and I shouldn’t be considered as a fake for it. I too have my own desires, like we all do, this is just my own way of trying to grasp it, the literal sense of grasping the form of happiness in your hand before it slips away from your fingers. How long has it been since you chased it? Genuine happiness? I want that for myself, and I selfishly want that for everyone else, though it might not what they want at the instance when I attempt to spread it. If you play this game, the end result us be worth the risk, or else it’ll all be for nothing. I mean, who the hell do I think I am? I sound crazy….

Did Hyde sound crazy? “ Anyway, I close my eyes to collect my thoughts and block out all of the information I’m taking in from my eyes. As you can see, I’m focused on 100 things at once, closing my eyes seems to help. Maybe it’s a fragment of my imagination? Maybe I only think that its helping me focus somewhat. .” Though Hyde frantically grasped his hair. “He’s going to do what?! I kind of like my hair…..”

If that’s the case, then good for you. It must be a lot better for you to hang out with people who don completely throw your mind into a fritz all the time. The problem is that were just two different people, which isn’t much of a problem in because everyone is different. Were just different in more ways than usual. “ You can’t necessarily pinpoint the problem that Sharaku and Hyde have with each other, there might not even be an answer to the problem that they have. Though, I’ll take what you said just now into account I guess. I never knew you feel that way, about the happiness thing. I’m sorry…..” That was the most Hyde could do, he felt like he owed Sharaku an apology at least. Though I’m not afraid to look you in the face and tell you how I really feel, I’ just easily distracted is all. Maybe the guessing game isn’t for me after all. “ Hyde yawned a bit as he tried to respond to as much as you can. Lets move on from those topics and talk about something a little more uplifting, speaking of that topic of happiness, what makes you happy nowadays?