The Walk [Sharaku/Sada]

Subject: Re: The Walk [Sharaku/Sada] Tue Mar 08, 2016 6:43 pm

So, he was flipped upside down then? Honestly, in the majority of cases, he found the first meetings to be the easiest part. Maintaining it beyond a casual acquaintance was the hardest part for him. It was as if his mind just decided that he wasn't motivated enough to keep trying hard after a while, for whatever reason. Even though he kind of wanted to. It just...felt like a chore most of the time, no matter what angle he approached it from. He got unnecessarily stressed because people wanted things that he couldn't help them with, and then it went all over the place.

As for the latter...it wouldn't be bad. Neither good, however. It was something he didn't know how to explain. ''I'd just feel guilty for not giving them enough chance to prove they matter. I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt even when they clearly don't deserve it. I know it's not the best thing, but I can't help it. I dislike tossing people around like some garbage because it isn't all swell at the moment....'', he would sigh. There was no real way around it. As a matter of fact, a smart person could probably even end up fooling with him thanks to that. He would hardly stay mad at someone for too long, no matter what. They would have to piss him off way too badly for that to happen. Funnily enough, he was fully aware of that. And he still kept doing it. He didn't even like Sada all that much, nor did he trust the guy, really. Yet, he was letting him tag along and was even having casual talks with him. As if they were buddies, which was far from the truth. He just couldn't decisively tell someone to piss the fuck off for the life of him. Maybe he did get harsh when he was overly frustrated and whatnot, but it never lasted long, and if the person held out for a bit, he wouldn't keep shoving them away after a while. He'd just go with the flow, as always. On and off.

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"You really are a nice guy aren't you? Though, it makes me quite curious actually...." This guy was definitely something else, his guilty conscience of being willing to see the good in others, what could have possibly gave birth to such a suicidal tendency.

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I can only imagine the look on your face when someone you tolerate or cares about betrays you. I'm almost quite certain, you will never be happy, you'll die if you go on like this Sharaku..... just like he did.

It was sad, almost depressing for Sada to watch apparently. This guy was similar in a sense, to give all that he was in the hopes of finding some sort of equivalence that would make sense in the end. However, could it really be so simple that people would simply turn around and live out their days without worry? People like sharaku are meant to be used and their kindness would be taken advantage of. Unless Sada was sure, he wouldn't let people get that close to him.

Subject: Re: The Walk [Sharaku/Sada] Tue Mar 08, 2016 7:21 pm

Eh? What did his expressions have to do with this? Well sure, he was not excited about betrayal. Not at all...but, he has learned to get over it by now. He knew that people lied and did hurtful things at times. He was a sort of paradox. He knew well that his stand towards matters could be foolish in some situations. And he knew why as well. Therefore, it didn't affect him to such a large extent as it would someone who is idealistic without taking a look at reality at all. Not anymore.

''I don't enjoy it. That much is obvious. However, I've faced enough hell already. I know how to deal with it. Why do you think this would kill me?'' He wasn't completely sure what was the other getting at. Someone literally backstabbing him? He was rather flexible, but he wasn't a complete idiot. He knew when to defend himself. He did give people the benefit, but he also watched them. He could tell that someone might pull crap on him, and that was enough for him to keep enough guard up to deal with it in case it actually happens. He did let people swarm around him, but he did not let them have everything of him just like that. His niceness was only a scratch on the surface in most cases.

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"Simple really, you think i'm the person you have to be weary of? It's not necessarily the people who you hardly know or have yet to experience for a long period of time. It's those who are already in, who are already close to you that are the most likely to hurt you in the end. The closer they are, the easier it is for them to get ahead. You seem smart, but it will happen, you'll misjudge how far is too far, and before you can retract, they bite your hand. "

Though, maybe Sada was getting ahead of himself. "As to why that would happen in the first place, just because? A necessity towards those more likely to take the middle ground in crucial situations is to get rid of them. When I reminisce of your desire, it stagnates, that's all I get from it. What happens in the middle between two friends when it really counts? What then, what if one of those friends are willing to do whatever they need to do, what will you do? If you hold back, or refuse to cut the tumor before it grows, you'll die. Discarding bonds based upon initial foresight serves the same purpose....................(i think...) maybe Sada was unsure this time around,but he would never admit it.

Subject: Re: The Walk [Sharaku/Sada] Tue Mar 08, 2016 7:54 pm

Hmm, check. He knew that one already. Although he usually did not think in those terms. It's certainly easier to hurt someone once you're close to them, but it's possible to do even when you're not. It can simply be a matter of noticing the right time to strike. He'd rather think outside the box, or better with no box at all, than following the most logical reasoning. Mainly when it came to relationship relates issues. He would give Sada a nonchalant smile. ''I know. I got bitten several times already. Perhaps I'm developing some immunity to it by now. It's not that I don't know the consequences of my behavior. I do know them well. I simply choose to try and work around them, instead of fleeing in fear of what might be.'' Every problem has some sort of solution, yes?

''Ah, but I don't necessarily advocate complete neutrality or middle ground. People will always clash in their opinions here and there. I just don't like things being solved in pointless ways that only case more conflict eventually. Let's just say that my prefered method is to be my own side, rather than joining someone else's idea, unless I really believe they are right.'', he would state, humming lightly. It would seem he was in a fairly laid-back mood for the moment. ''You see, there are always alternative routes. One could ignore the tumor and let it kill them. Or they can get rid of it in attempt to protect themselves. But is that all? Maybe one could also try healing it in some way. People aren't always initially compatible, but that doesn't mean they cannot connect. Going by your idea, I should have sent you to hell immediately for giving off an arrogant and selfish vibe. But I choose not to cast judgement far too early.'' Maybe not even later. Or ever. Eh, okay, he would but most likely keep it to himself. Perhaps he was letting people have a chance at manipulating him, but in turn, he also had the tools to manipulate them. Albeit, it was not something he liked practicing.

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It's not running away, it's being more proactive towards the problem before it becomes out of control. That the only way to live in order to ensure longevity, leaving things by chance is a burden. There is no such thing as a guarantee for anyone in any point in life. There is always someway or something that gets in the way of being able to gain or achieve what you want. I doubt youll ever believe if a person is completely right, there is flaws in every choice, logic is a worldly law but it doesnt default into being the only right choice. But i cant hate that bout you, being on your own side. " That was somemthing to admire, even Sada could say that he was on his own side as well. " Send me to hell? Look around you, there are some fates that can be worst than death. " Sada would say simply, but Sharaku did have his attention for a moment. "So what, you would try to heal it? Never saw you as a man of miracles. Tell me this, what gives you so much hope for the bright side?

Subject: Re: The Walk [Sharaku/Sada] Wed Mar 09, 2016 5:05 am

Sharaku would laugh slightly. ''Or maybe it just means you don't believe you're strong enough to deal with the possible obstacles. Sure, throwing away bonds would be easier, but I personally see that more as an avoidance of further responsibility. As long as there's still a chance, I don't want to toss something away. As you said, there is no guarantee. So there is no proof that it is irreparable either. I do face problems when they come up, but I find cutting off to be a childish solution, unless there is really no other choice.'' All you had to do is be decently careful. People could screw you over, but they could also be the best thing in your life. Be too quick to judge them, and you'll just be seen as unreliable after a while.

''Hm? What does dying have to do with this? I didn't even imply anything as severe as that.'' What for? ''Maybe it's just how I am. I've seen a lot of hell in my life, but I've come to believe that most people aren't truly bad despite it. They just don't really know how to walk the right path. I'd rather hope for the better than for the worse. Being a pessimist makes you see everything in black colors. It's not an enjoyable life...'' Technically, he knew how that felt. He had his moments in the past, and he found it pointless for the most part.

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Sada didn't have nothing to say at this point in time, he felt as if he came to a wall. However, some silence was needed in conversations too. Sada didn't want this to be a back and forth, he kind of knew when to stop talking, even if Sharaku ultimately though it would be strange for Sada to have nothing to retort. But that was just it, it wasn't something to comment on. I all seemed hopeless to him, and Sada only found it relatively weary to cut people off because they did the same to him. There was a time when Sada cared about a bond so much and would of done anything he needed to do in order to hold on to it. But it was broken, and no matter how much Sada claims that hes over it, there is still a light resentment in his heart towards himself, blaming himself for everything that happened and towards the fact that it happened in the first place.

But Sharkau didn't need to know that.

Subject: Re: The Walk [Sharaku/Sada] Wed Mar 09, 2016 4:19 pm

''......??''

Well, that was somewhat unexpected. If anything, he would think he'd get at least some sort of a response, even just a short one. Sharaku didn't really mind some silence, but a sudden one can be odd. It makes you wonder whether you said something wrong, or simply raises the question as to what happened. Sada didn't strike him as the brooding type, so this was certainly unusual. He would give the other a puzzled glance. ''Is something up?''

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"Regardless of how your life went, going through hell and back, you always maintain some hope. Hope for yourself, but even more hope for bonds. You say discarding them is a sense of avoiding a responsibility, but what responsibility can you possibly hold for anything other than yourself? You... you don't owe these people anything, and its up to the point that you are either mature enough to handle the results of what happened, or have been hurt so much that you are absolutely numb to it. If the latter, what do you really live for....... "

Sada didn't understand. "i dont... get you.........you're too exposed..."

Subject: Re: The Walk [Sharaku/Sada] Wed Mar 09, 2016 7:34 pm

Hmmm. Well, there were several angles one could consider in that. You take up a responsibility towards anything you choose to involve yourself in. A bond requires two people's efforts, yours and someone else's. By putting in the effort in the first place, you are already responsible for your part of the equation. In a way. Who else would be responsible for it if not the people involved? No one? ''By participating in a bond to begin with, you make it a part of yourself. In that sense, you are responsible for it to an extent, because it should mean something to you. If it never has, then you are sort of responsible for leading the other person on by their nose. Responsibility can take on many forms, I'd say.'' It doesn't only have to be the clear cut one everyone swings around.

''Perhaps it's a combination of both? I can still feel pain though, so maybe not.'' He could certainly get hurt, but it was something he could deal with. He would smile thinly. ''I don't think I am. I just tend to talk about it.'' Perceptions are deceptive. He could clearly give the image of being out there at times, but he wasn't that much of an open person. ''As for what do I live for? In a way, the same as you. Myself. However, we take a completely different approach towards the concept, it seems. Or perhaps not so much of a different approach, but a different base.'' From a certain perspective, he could put two and two together. Only maybe because the two of them weren't that different...they just had quite clashing surfaces. Those still made a big impact, however.

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"The many form of responsibilities...." Sada was really stuck on this conversation. "pain........" A flashback happened, the only pain he could think about is the aftermath of the accident with Sada's legs being crippled. He felt down to earth, but even lower than the dirt itself. If there was one thing he knew, it was pain. "So were the same, but were different. As a matter of fact, one way to describe us is....all for one... and one for all... two separate parts of the same quote. With that being said, what will really give here...in the end... me bein more like you or you being more like me? " Looking ahead, Sada seemed that they were getting close. " Alright, looks like were almost here.... so about your shadow, was it part fish or something?

Subject: Re: The Walk [Sharaku/Sada] Wed Mar 09, 2016 8:15 pm

Sharaku would hum somewhat thoughtfully as he watched the other. ''Yes, but perhaps also not. I would say we are similar in a different way. Rather than being two parts of one, I see you more as me flipped upside down. If you can follow what I mean.'' He doubted that was something he could soundly describe. And it hardly mattered in the long run, because knowing something doesn't make you better at actually being able to work with it. ''The answer to that is something I'll leave for you to figure out yourself.'' He had an idea as to what it would be, but he percieved is as marginally irrelevant for the time being. Nor did he feel the need to answer something like that too early. He would raise an eyebrow. ''Is there a reason why are you thinking about fish right now?'' Amongst other things.

Subject: Re: The Walk [Sharaku/Sada] Tue Mar 15, 2016 8:36 pm

The fisher of souls pulls up his net and sees two soul fish already tied together in his net. Examining them closely, he measures their growth over time. With a thoughtful hum, he releases them back into the sea.

The bond between Sharaku and Sada is growing; however, with no clear end to the show the fisher decides to watch them a bit more for growth.

(No rank up this round. While I love the interaction, the abrupt end makes it hard to judge the completeness of the bond.)

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