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Subject: Rui Terui (Endymion) (ASSW) (Complete) Sat Dec 09, 2017 8:11 am
Rui Terui "Endymion, ame-o ou deixe-o."
The Biography
Birth Name: Rui Terui (照井 類) Aliases: Ruirui, Teruru Gender: Male? (Androids and all) Age: 31, appears 15-17 Birth Day: March 15 Arcana: Empress Place of Residence: Seven Stars Academy Dormitories Academy Semester: First Class: (We'll fill this in once you're approved. This will be your class in school)
Sorority: Literature Club
Part/Full Time Job: Investment Banker
Appearance:
Spoiler:
A young man with almost no noticeable facial expression except hints of a muted smile that rarely breaks. Rui's hair is dyed a dark pinkish red, often, but not always asymmetrically tied into a braid. He dresses almost exclusively in clothing that covers his entire body, including his neck, often opting for either a sweater, a high-neck long-sleeved shirt, or something he can put over one of those things. Besides that, he can usually be found either wearing dark slacks or dark jeans, with a fairly unnecessary belt. Both his weight and height are below average (169 cm and 54.5 kg).
Personality: Rui is consistently outgoing, upbeat, energetic, friendly, and quick to engage in small talk. Often excessively so. Furthermore, he is quick to sign up to do other people favors and is not often angered or offended by others. However, once pleasantries are exchanged and common talking points exhausted, Rui often reverts back to his comfort zone. He often keeps his own thoughts to himself, tailoring his comments and conversation largely to elicit desired responses, not because he actually believes in them. As a result, he tends to be a modestly liked acquaintance to many, but a good friend to almost none.
Rui is a natural resenter, tending to dislike people the more liked they are by others...and vice versa. He is also quick to internally blame others, but he’s realized that he needs to decisively act in order to fix his own mistakes - he’ll just do that while blaming someone else. He is also rather bitter, feeling that he had squandered most of his organic life, and is thus often envious of his classmates. Rui is also naturally future-orientated and generically consistently organized and punctual.
Rui's adjustment to his new form has been mixed, largely because he is somewhat bitter about being able to miss out on a lot of exclusively human functions. As an adaptation, he's absolutely grabbed onto the opportunity to go wild having fun (sometimes at the expense of others) in every other way, an option that is uniquely appealing after having lived a heavily regimented and ill life largely sheltered from the outside world by those who feared for his safety in a high-crime society.
The Potential
Strengths: (Anything your character is skilled in, such as Martial Arts/ Drawing/ etc? You are allowed a maximum of five strengths and a minimum of three. Inhuman strengths will only be active in Orgia Mode.)
—Strength Name: LEED Certified Batteries —Description: “The new model will be the greenest ever, with a high-capacity battery ready to run on renewable, low-carbon emission energy sources.” +15% to luck.
—Strength Name: Wolfram|Alpha of Wall Street —Description: Rui is quite independently wealthy, largely through the powers of working at a high-income business for a long time, having no pricey hobbies, coming from a relatively well-off family, being relatively frugal, and the beauty of compound interest. He is sadly not rich enough however to "screw the rules because I have money," though he can sustain a upper-class lifestyle on investment earnings. [Note: does not affect in-game currency]
—Strength Name: Parental Instinct —Description: Having grown up enough to see family and friends have children, and slightly depressed over a current probable inability to ever have children, Rui has a natural parental instinct to the vulnerable...sometimes. +15% bonus to Healing.
—Strength Name: Robot Glamour —Description: Due to not being physically organic for the most part, Rui does not need to dedicate time to having clear skin (by manually putting on make-up) or healthy-looking hair (through haircare) - furthermore, Rui can alter his appearance considerably faster than a normal human can (he couldn’t immediately change his hair for instance, but he could certainly recolor or grow it out in a day if he wanted to.) [Note: RP/Cosmetic only.]
—Strength Name: Evacuation Orgia (Inhuman) —Description: “Brave Sir ASSW ran away. Bravely ran away, away! When danger reared its ugly head, He bravely turned his tail and fled.” During Orgia Mode, if not attacking, Rui can move extremely quickly while carrying a very heavy weight, even briefly flying. ----- Weaknesses: (You must have the same amount of weaknesses as strengths. These weaknesses pertain to you and not your Persona. IE: Physically Weaker, lack of attention span, etc.)
—Weakness Name: LEED Certified Batteries —Description: “God damnit Jones, there’s a reason why we don’t use that battery model anymore! It literally burned a guy’s balls off once.” +15% to all electric damage taken, alongside a tendency to accidentally break electronic products.
—Weakness Name: Ride or Die Chick Bro —Description: “[Insert Social Link Here] did nothing wrong.” If a friend or acquaintance (any social link) does something widely considered repulsive, outrageous, or embarrassing, this only encourages Rui to rally HARDER behind the person in question.
—Weakness Name: Uncanny Valley —Description: “You seem a little off today. Are you paying attention? Oh, I guess you are. Wait, have you blinked all day?” Charisma starts at rank 0 (need to level up twice to reach rank 2).
—Weakness Name: Periodic Disassociation —Description: Rui faces the mental stress of being put in a foreign “body”, albeit one that superficially resembles a younger version of Rui. The glitchy android may stop processing emotional stimuli for brief periods of time, before they all rush into the system at once, possibly overwhelming the android in ways that probably seem bizarre or emotionally immature.
—Weakness Name: Glitchy Recovery (Inhuman) —Description: “Eh, it’s a feature, not a bug,” the lazy programmer lied as he neglected his bug-checking duties. During the three turns after recovering from Orgia mode, suffer a 15% penalty to dexterity. ----- Soul Bound Weapon:
Weapon Name: Arisaka Rifle with bayonet and scope (airsoft) Weapon Description: An airsoft replica of the Arisaka rifle from World War 2. The gun isn’t real, but scope and bayonet are, allowing it to function as a melee weapon. Rifle barrel is 25.9 inches long, bayonet blade another 15.75 inches. Weapon Image: (Not necessary) Weapon Attack Type: Pierce Weapon Element: (Leave this blank. Only special weapons obtain an element behind its blows.)
Side-Arm Weapon:
Side-Arm Name: Arisaka Rifle with bayonet and scope (airsoft) Side-Arm Description: See above. Shoots rapidly, because it's an airsoft gun, not a real rifle. Side-Arm Image: See above. Side-Arm Attack Type: Machine Gun Side-Arm Style: Machine Gun - Muti-Round - Accuracy is decreased by 30%. Consumes 3 types of ammo at once to fire -must be same type of ammo.)
The Background
History: Rui Terui was born in a considerably wealthy family in Campinas, Brazil, which ran an import-export business. Although somewhat sickly, Rui had a fairly pampered and happy childhood, until he was kidnapped at a young age alongside many of his classmates and held for ransom. Although he actually escaped by convincing one of his captor to let down his guard and fleeing outside, his family made sure to keep him locked down under guard. Although he had fine tutors and patrician hobbies, his contact with other children was sporadic. The entire experience gave him a rather unsavory opinion of "criminals", a general appreciation for harsh and bold action, and several eccentric personality quirks.
An excellent student, he easily tested into a federal university (UFRJ), where he studied economics and Japanese literature (his mother tongue) and made few friends, largely disliking classmates that seemed more ensconced in protests and parties. After graduating, he worked between Tokyo and Manhattan as an investment banker (also earning an MBA at Columbia). However, after several years of working, his illness significantly worsened, proving non-responsive.
He was told to undertake a new experimental treatment in Endymion, but his operation ended up taking place during the Eternal Divide, which severely complicated things. The details remain hazy, but it appears that the medical company in charge was forced to replace almost his entire body with what they apparently had on hand, which were assorted parts from soon-to-be-assembled ASSWs. Apparently, this ended up being more efficient than the actual planned surgery, which would have had a higher chance of failure.
Out of curiosity in the procedures, the well-connected doctors agreed to waive his rather large costs if he could stick around in Endymion and have regular check-ups with them (they are largely interested to see if he’ll go crazy or something in his new body). As a result, he was placed in Seven Stars Academy as a “transfer” student, utterly flummoxed, both antsy for not doing anything and for the first time in his life, demoralized by having no particular future to plan for. Though maybe it would be interesting to live a "normal" high school life that he never had the opportunity to enjoy. "Normal."
Last edited by Ifnb on Wed Aug 29, 2018 11:22 pm; edited 24 times in total
Albrecht
Posts : 2548 Join date : 2015-01-01 Age : 25
Subject: Re: Rui Terui (Endymion) (ASSW) (Complete) Sat Dec 09, 2017 5:39 pm
Okay so your sheet is mostly good, but there are a few things that must be addressed before i can approve your character:
The Robot Glamour strength, as long the changes are just cosmetic and the character remains recognizable it's fine, just make sure to note that.
The LEED Certified Batteries weakness must change, Zio ailments aren't inherent to elements they must be taken as a passive, so this is hardly a weakness. Furthermore, usually when you taking "Boost Y by X%" you usually must lose X% somewhere else(Ex: Taking X% more damage from a certain element).
Lastly, add the dimensions of your melee weapon. Length of the blade, stuff like that.
Other than that your sheet is good to go.
Ifnb
Posts : 343 Join date : 2017-12-08
Subject: Re: Rui Terui (Endymion) (ASSW) (Complete) Sat Dec 09, 2017 10:41 pm
Fixed all three! For robot glamour, I was imagining it like changing hair colors or getting a tan overnight.
Albrecht
Posts : 2548 Join date : 2015-01-01 Age : 25
Subject: Re: Rui Terui (Endymion) (ASSW) (Complete) Sun Dec 10, 2017 11:48 am
Rui Terui "No worries! It's totally okay! You're right! They had it coming anyways...right?"
The Biography
Birth Name: Rui Terui (照井 類) Aliases: Ruirui, Teruru Gender: Male? (Androids and all) Age: 31, appears 15-17 Birth Day: March 15 Arcana: Empress Place of Residence: Seven Stars Academy Dormitories Academy Semester: First Class: (We'll fill this in once you're approved. This will be your class in school)
Sorority: Literature Club, Anime Club
Part/Full Time Job: Investment Banker
Appearance:
Spoiler:
A young man with almost no noticeable facial expression except hints of a muted smile that rarely breaks. Rui's hair is dyed a dark pinkish red, often, but not always asymmetrically tied into a braid. He dresses almost exclusively in clothing that covers his entire body, including his neck, often opting for either a sweater, a high-neck long-sleeved shirt, or something he can put over one of those things. Besides that, he can usually be found either wearing dark slacks or dark jeans, with a fairly unnecessary belt. Both his weight and height are below average (169 cm and 54.5 kg).
Personality: Rui is consistently polite, friendly, and quick to engage in small talk. Furthermore, he is quick to sign up to do other people favors and is not often angered or offended by others. However, once pleasantries are exchanged and common talking points exhausted, Rui often reverts back to his comfort zone - a patrician, slightly aloof way of dealing with others. He often keeps his own thoughts to himself, tailoring his comments and conversation largely to elicit desired responses, not because he actually believes in them. As a result, he tends to be a modestly liked acquaintance to many, but a good friend to almost none.
Rui is a natural resenter, tending to dislike people the more liked they are by others...and vice versa. He is also quick to internally blame others, but he’s realized that he needs to decisively act in order to fix his own mistakes - he’ll just do that while blaming someone else. He is also rather bitter, feeling that he had squandered most of his organic life, and is thus often envious of his classmates. Rui is also naturally future-orientated and generically consistently organized and punctual.
The Potential
Strengths: (Anything your character is skilled in, such as Martial Arts/ Drawing/ etc? You are allowed a maximum of five strengths and a minimum of three. Inhuman strengths will only be active in Orgia Mode.)
—Strength Name: LEED Certified Batteries —Description: “The new model will be the greenest ever, with a high-capacity battery ready to run on renewable, low-carbon emission energy sources.” +15% to total SP.
—Strength Name: Wolfram|Alpha of Wall Street —Description: Rui is quite independently wealthy, largely through the powers of working at a high-income business for a long time, having no pricey hobbies, coming from a relatively well-off family, being relatively frugal, and the beauty of compound interest. He is sadly not rich enough however to "screw the rules because I have money," though he can sustain a middle-class lifestyle on investment earnings. (Cannot be used to purchase gameplay-related items!)
—Strength Name: Parental Instinct —Description: Having grown up enough to see family and friends have children, and slightly depressed over a current probable inability to ever have children, Rui has a natural parental instinct to the vulnerable...sometimes. +15% bonus to Healing.
—Strength Name: Robot Glamour —Description: Due to not being physically organic for the most part, Rui does not need to dedicate time to having clear skin (by manually putting on make-up) or healthy-looking hair (through haircare) - furthermore, Rui can alter his appearance considerably faster than a normal human can (he couldn’t immediately change his hair for instance, but he could certainly grow it out in a day if he wanted to.) Cosmetic only.
—Strength Name: Evacuation Orgia (Inhuman) —Description: “Brave Sir ASSW ran away. Bravely ran away, away! When danger reared its ugly head, He bravely turned his tail and fled.” During Orgia Mode, if not attacking, Rui can move extremely quickly while carrying a very heavy weight, even briefly flying. ----- Weaknesses: (You must have the same amount of weaknesses as strengths. These weaknesses pertain to you and not your Persona. IE: Physically Weaker, lack of attention span, etc.)
—Weakness Name: LEED Certified Batteries —Description: “God damnit Jones, there’s a reason why we don’t use that battery model anymore! It literally burned a guy’s balls off once.” +15% to all electric damage taken.
—Weakness Name: Ride or Die Chick Bro —Description: “[Insert Social Link Here] did nothing wrong.” If a friend or acquaintance (any social link) does something widely considered repulsive, outrageous, or embarrassing, this only encourages Rui to rally HARDER behind the person in question.
—Weakness Name: Uncanny Valley —Description: “You seem a little off today. Are you paying attention? Oh, I guess you are. Wait, have you blinked all day?” Charisma starts at rank 0 (need to level up twice to reach rank 2).
—Weakness Name: Periodic Disassociation —Description: Rui faces the mental stress of being put in a foreign “body”, albeit one that superficially resembles a younger version of Rui. The glitchy android may stop processing emotional stimuli for brief periods of time, before they all rush into the system at once, possibly overwhelming the android in ways that probably seem bizarre or emotionally immature.
—Weakness Name: Glitchy Recovery (Inhuman) —Description: “Eh, it’s a feature, not a bug,” the lazy programmer lied as he neglected his bug-checking duties. During the three turns after recovering from Orgia mode, suffer a 15% penalty to dexterity. ----- Soul Bound Weapon:
Weapon Name: Arisaka Rifle with bayonet and scope (airsoft) Weapon Description: An airsoft replica of the Arisaka rifle from World War 2. The gun isn’t real, but scope and bayonet are, allowing it to function as a melee weapon. Rifle barrel is 25.9 inches long, bayonet blade another 15.75 inches. Weapon Image: (Not necessary) Weapon Attack Type: Pierce Weapon Element: (Leave this blank. Only special weapons obtain an element behind its blows.)
History: Rui Terui was born in a considerably wealthy family in Campinas, Brazil, which ran an import-export business. Although somewhat sickly, Rui had a fairly pampered and happy childhood, until he was kidnapped at a young age alongside many of his classmates and held for ransom. Although he actually escaped fairly easily by just convincing one of his captor to let down his guard and just walking outside, his family made sure to keep him locked down under guard. Although he had fine tutors and patrician hobbies, his contact with other children was sporadic. The entire experience gave him a rather unsavory opinion of "criminals" and a general appreciation for harsh and bold action.
An excellent student, he easily tested into a federal university (UFRJ), where he studied economics and Japanese literature (his mother tongue) and made few friends, largely disliking classmates that seemed more ensconced in protests and parties. After graduating, he worked between Tokyo and Manhattan as an investment banker (also earning an MBA at Columbia). However, after several years of working, he was diagnosed with a serious terminal illness.
He was told to undertake a new experimental treatment in Endymion, but his operation ended up taking place during the Eternal Divide. The details remain hazy, but it appears that the medical company in charge was forced to replace almost his entire body with what they apparently had on hand, which were assorted parts from soon-to-be-assembled ASSWs. Apparently, this ended up being more efficient than the actual planned surgery, which would have had a higher chance of failure.
Out of curiosity in the procedures, the doctors agreed to waive his rather large costs if he could stay around in Endymion and have regular check-ups with them (they are largely interested to see if he’ll go crazy or something in his new body). As a result, he was placed in Seven Stars Academy as a “transfer” student, utterly flummoxed, both antsy for not doing anything and for the first time in his lie, demoralized by having no particular future to plan for. Though maybe it would be interesting to live a "normal" high school life that he never had the opportunity to enjoy. "Normal."
Azami
Posts : 1246 Join date : 2014-10-17 Age : 24 Location : Chained to a rock by a fickle RNG god. Ow, my liver.
Birth Name: Rui Terui (照井 類) Aliases: Ruirui, Teruru Gender: Male? (Androids and all) Age: 31, appears 15-17 Birth Day: March 15 Arcana: Empress Place of Residence: Seven Stars Academy Dormitories Academy Semester: First Class: (We'll fill this in once you're approved. This will be your class in school)
Sorority: Literature Club
Part/Full Time Job: Investment Banker
Appearance:
Spoiler:
A young man with almost no noticeable facial expression except hints of a muted smile that rarely breaks. Rui's hair is dyed a dark pinkish red, often, but not always asymmetrically tied into a braid. He dresses almost exclusively in clothing that covers his entire body, including his neck, often opting for either a sweater, a high-neck long-sleeved shirt, or something he can put over one of those things. Besides that, he can usually be found either wearing dark slacks or dark jeans, with a fairly unnecessary belt. Both his weight and height are below average (169 cm and 54.5 kg).
Personality: Rui is consistently outgoing, upbeat, energetic, friendly, and quick to engage in small talk. Often excessively so. Furthermore, he is quick to sign up to do other people favors and is not often angered or offended by others. However, once pleasantries are exchanged and common talking points exhausted, Rui often reverts back to his comfort zone. He often keeps his own thoughts to himself, tailoring his comments and conversation largely to elicit desired responses, not because he actually believes in them. As a result, he tends to be a modestly liked acquaintance to many, but a good friend to almost none.
Rui is a natural resenter, tending to dislike people the more liked they are by others...and vice versa. He is also quick to internally blame others, but he’s realized that he needs to decisively act in order to fix his own mistakes - he’ll just do that while blaming someone else. He is also rather bitter, feeling that he had squandered most of his organic life, and is thus often envious of his classmates. Rui is also naturally future-orientated and generically consistently organized and punctual.
The Potential
Strengths: (Anything your character is skilled in, such as Martial Arts/ Drawing/ etc? You are allowed a maximum of five strengths and a minimum of three. Inhuman strengths will only be active in Orgia Mode.)
—Strength Name: LEED Certified Batteries —Description: “The new model will be the greenest ever, with a high-capacity battery ready to run on renewable, low-carbon emission energy sources.” +15% to luck.
—Strength Name: Wolfram|Alpha of Wall Street —Description: Rui is quite independently wealthy, largely through the powers of working at a high-income business for a long time, having no pricey hobbies, coming from a relatively well-off family, being relatively frugal, and the beauty of compound interest. He is sadly not rich enough however to "screw the rules because I have money," though he can sustain a upper-class lifestyle on investment earnings. [Note: does not affect in-game currency]
—Strength Name: Parental Instinct —Description: Having grown up enough to see family and friends have children, and slightly depressed over a current probable inability to ever have children, Rui has a natural parental instinct to the vulnerable...sometimes. +15% bonus to Healing.
—Strength Name: Robot Glamour —Description: Due to not being physically organic for the most part, Rui does not need to dedicate time to having clear skin (by manually putting on make-up) or healthy-looking hair (through haircare) - furthermore, Rui can alter his appearance considerably faster than a normal human can (he couldn’t immediately change his hair for instance, but he could certainly recolor or grow it out in a day if he wanted to.) [Note: RP/Cosmetic only.]
—Strength Name: Evacuation Orgia (Inhuman) —Description: “Brave Sir ASSW ran away. Bravely ran away, away! When danger reared its ugly head, He bravely turned his tail and fled.” During Orgia Mode, if not attacking, Rui can move extremely quickly while carrying a very heavy weight, even briefly flying. ----- Weaknesses: (You must have the same amount of weaknesses as strengths. These weaknesses pertain to you and not your Persona. IE: Physically Weaker, lack of attention span, etc.)
—Weakness Name: LEED Certified Batteries —Description: “God damnit Jones, there’s a reason why we don’t use that battery model anymore! It literally burned a guy’s balls off once.” +15% to all electric damage taken, alongside a tendency to accidentally break electronic products.
—Weakness Name: Ride or Die Chick Bro —Description: “[Insert Social Link Here] did nothing wrong.” If a friend or acquaintance (any social link) does something widely considered repulsive, outrageous, or embarrassing, this only encourages Rui to rally HARDER behind the person in question.
—Weakness Name: Uncanny Valley —Description: “You seem a little off today. Are you paying attention? Oh, I guess you are. Wait, have you blinked all day?” Charisma starts at rank 0 (need to level up twice to reach rank 2).
—Weakness Name: Periodic Disassociation —Description: Rui faces the mental stress of being put in a foreign “body”, albeit one that superficially resembles a younger version of Rui. The glitchy android may stop processing emotional stimuli for brief periods of time, before they all rush into the system at once, possibly overwhelming the android in ways that probably seem bizarre or emotionally immature.
—Weakness Name: Glitchy Recovery (Inhuman) —Description: “Eh, it’s a feature, not a bug,” the lazy programmer lied as he neglected his bug-checking duties. During the three turns after recovering from Orgia mode, suffer a 15% penalty to dexterity. ----- Soul Bound Weapon:
Weapon Name: Arisaka Rifle with bayonet and scope (airsoft) Weapon Description: An airsoft replica of the Arisaka rifle from World War 2. The gun isn’t real, but scope and bayonet are, allowing it to function as a melee weapon. Rifle barrel is 25.9 inches long, bayonet blade another 15.75 inches. Weapon Image: (Not necessary) Weapon Attack Type: Pierce Weapon Element: (Leave this blank. Only special weapons obtain an element behind its blows.)
Side-Arm Weapon:
Side-Arm Name: Arisaka Rifle with bayonet and scope (airsoft) Side-Arm Description: See above. Shoots rapidly, because it's an airsoft gun, not a real rifle. Side-Arm Image: See above. Side-Arm Attack Type: Machine Gun Side-Arm Style: Machine Gun - Muti-Round - Accuracy is decreased by 30%. Consumes 3 types of ammo at once to fire -must be same type of ammo.)
The Background
History: Rui Terui was born in a considerably wealthy family in Campinas, Brazil, which ran an import-export business. Although somewhat sickly, Rui had a fairly pampered and happy childhood, until he was kidnapped at a young age alongside many of his classmates and held for ransom. Although he actually escaped by convincing one of his captor to let down his guard and fleeing outside, his family made sure to keep him locked down under guard. Although he had fine tutors and patrician hobbies, his contact with other children was sporadic. The entire experience gave him a rather unsavory opinion of "criminals", a general appreciation for harsh and bold action, and several eccentric personality quirks.
An excellent student, he easily tested into a federal university (UFRJ), where he studied economics and Japanese literature (his mother tongue) and made few friends, largely disliking classmates that seemed more ensconced in protests and parties. After graduating, he worked between Tokyo and Manhattan as an investment banker (also earning an MBA at Columbia). However, after several years of working, he was diagnosed with a serious terminal illness.
He was told to undertake a new experimental treatment in Endymion, but his operation ended up taking place during the Eternal Divide, which severely complicated things. The details remain hazy, but it appears that the medical company in charge was forced to replace almost his entire body with what they apparently had on hand, which were assorted parts from soon-to-be-assembled ASSWs. Apparently, this ended up being more efficient than the actual planned surgery, which would have had a higher chance of failure.
Out of curiosity in the procedures, the well-connected doctors agreed to waive his rather large costs if he could stick around in Endymion and have regular check-ups with them (they are largely interested to see if he’ll go crazy or something in his new body). As a result, he was placed in Seven Stars Academy as a “transfer” student, utterly flummoxed, both antsy for not doing anything and for the first time in his life, demoralized by having no particular future to plan for. Though maybe it would be interesting to live a "normal" high school life that he never had the opportunity to enjoy. "Normal."