A Confession About Myself

Well, this was long over due and quite honestly something that I really didn't expect would of lasted this long nor be a full on thing at all from the beginning. When I first joined NA, I joined on Jerry's request with absolutely no experience in forum based roleplay and literally no idea what persona even was. On top of that I, as some of you may know, am an extremely shy person especially around new people, I've also got OCD and change really messes me up so again with it being a brand new thing to me with a bunch of people I didn't know at all, the idea of it freaked me out.

However due to being finally persisted onto giving the site a try, I at first decided to use Wolfie (My username and a roleplay character I had used in something previously) as a sort of face for myself to hide behind. I used her personality, her way of talking and the likes as I knew she was a generally friendly character and felt I'd be more comfortable using her as a shield to defend me against all the social anxiety attacks my brain wanted to give me. Which worked, it worked fairly well and again as most would know I still use her here as who I pretend to be when talking. Granted I've become comfortable enough now to let my own personality through as well, which I dunno if anyone has noticed the change but I digress. I still enjoy using her as a face, it's fun for me and I like pretending to be a stupid wolf within the community.

These aren't the things I have issues with, nor something I want to stop doing. There is just one major side of Wolfie that is greatly different from mine that I felt would of become a thing people knew much earlier than this. Though when it never did come up it just felt like it was becoming more and more of an awkward thing to bring up until it got to a point where I was scared to mention it at all in fear that it would alter peoples opinions of me and end up having people I thought of as friends think differently of me, I dunno, I freak out about stupid things a lot. Regardless this trail of thought continued and now its been two and a half years since I joined here and aside from a few select people, most people still don't know.

Anyway I'm rambling now but I wanted to finally get this off of my chest, for better or for worse as it has been something I felt guilty about for a long while as I don't enjoy lying to people. But as I said, Wolfie was a face that I used to hide myself, I took her personality, her way of talking, her friendliness and her gender when doing so. Aaanndd, that's the one that I've felt bad about. Wolfie may be a she, but in real life, I'm not. I'm actually a guy whom just prefers to roleplay as female characters. Again I'm sorry to anyone who sees this as a shock or takes it the wrong way, I just really needed to finally get this off of my chest and I hope that nothing changes between me and anyone here because of this.

Thanks for bothering to read all of that if you did.

No problem, Wolfie. You're still a pretty cool guy to me.

Thank Cap'. I appreciate it

Yo, I may need to know you too well, but you've always been nice. You're A+ in my books, dude or dudette.