Well It's been a year give or take... Time for my life story!

(Fair warning... This gets into some heavy shit. If you don't want that today skip to the end.)

SO!... It's been one year(And two days) sense I first made my account here. And I gatta say it's been one hell of a ride for me. I've had my ups and downs, comes and goes, lefts and rights, ketchups and mustards. But along the way I think I've learned a lot about a lot of very interesting people. Everyone here has had an impact on my life both online and offline in one way or another. To those of you who have gone out of your way to be my friend and support me I thank you from the bottom of both only my heart but all my organs, and to those who have tried to assassinate me, all I have to say is I'm still alive Doody Head!

I know I can be a bit hot headed and a little loud. I know my weird obsession with a certain children's show can get a bit much at times, but I'm glad to see that you all put up with me long enough in chat to not scream at me while I'm there heh.

I'd also like to say... That I appreciate you all sticking with me. Not all of you know this but I have a bit of a history with online forums and let's just say it's... not a very Morphenomenal one...It all started on that hive of scum and villainy known as Fanfiction.net. I met someone I thought I wanted to spend the rest of my life with there and soon joined a small community of friends there... and life was good! We all had a great time just goofing around and being friends. As time went on we migrated to a different site when this person I felt so strongly about decided she wanted to make art. That's right we went to Diviant art and began dicking around there. And ya know what? Things were good. I felt like I had found a family online that would always be there to support me. Not to say my IRL family was lacking in the slightest... but to say there was a lack of fighting at home would be a gross understatement heh.

And so things were good... Except... I noticed the important person was starting to drift away from me. I didn't think much of it sense we had promised ourselves to each other and I just thought she was making new friends and broadening her horizons. I was happy for her, and I thought our little family was just growing larger

... As it turned out our family was growing... and I was being left behind. It started out small. She met some new people and started to hang out with them more then me but that was fine, I was really busy with school and work anyway so I thought nothing of it, after all we spent the weekends together anyway. Then I noticed she became distant when we were together. Not responding in the same way... Then She stopped coming to me for things, instead she would confide in another guy for her problems. That was the first red flag I ignored. heh... I've always been trusting. But she assured me that nothing was going on and I believed her, after all she was the one person I could trust over anyone...

Then came the week of valentines day 2013, Saturday the 9th if my memory is correct... She came to me with some news... that she had been cheating on me for the last month. That was... Yeah that was a slap to the face... heh... she assured it was over... and that she loved me.

I believed her, because I loved her.

Over the next week things fell apart. I felt that the whole ordeal had been my fault and apologized to her for making her do that to the point of becoming annoying... Apparently the final straw was when I called the guy she cheated on me with out for being a dickhead. She decided that was a crime not worth forgiving and broke up with me for good.

Over the next three months she systematically tore me out of the family we created together... Making me out to be this horrible monster and terrible person. That I had abused her... To say it broke me would be taking it lightly. If you look on the right places over at DeviantArt you can still find the aftermath of it all heh.

I tried to take my own life a few times...

How I survived it I will never know. I think it was because I hooked up with another person who my Ex decided was not worthy of being in her kingdom. This new person and I only really stayed together because we had no one else... we were lonely and broken and needed someone in order to stay alive. So we kept each other afloat. After a year she left in the night and I never saw her again... I don't blame her though, I was about to do the same...

Then fast forward a year and I stumbled across this site. At first I was really apprehensive. I felt that this would be a short stay, maybe a quick chat with a few other SMT lovers and I'd be gone, not sticking around to get hurt again by another fake family. But one year latter here I am writing this. So I guess the short of this is... Thanks for putting up with me and teaching me how to trust again.


TL;DR: Herpa derpa thanks for all the fish.

BRO..... bro.... were like... a team bro.. all the feels man... you came a long way. No matter what anyone says, even those who go out their way to be insensitive assholes, you will always be welcome here...alright?

*snuggles Jackie* You know already you can talk or vent to me about anything anytime Jack. (Well as long as I'm actually online x3) Your a very special person to me and I hate to see you upset

Well, here buddy, you're always considered family. I'm glad I got to meet you Jack. Life gets tough sometimes, but those hardships only make us stronger if we can sit back up on the horse. Here's for another year! *Cheers*

You guys misunderstand. I'm not doing this because I'm upset or even sad, ^-^ I'm doing this to say thank you for being such great friends over the past year, and that I trust you all with my darkest time.

Thanks for being there for me though guys... the hugs are always welcome. X3

Some people are just assholes >.> I've left other sites cause things weren't working out in the past myself. But that doesn't mean everyone is. There's always someone who cares, you just gotta look in the right places, heh.

*pats Jack* You're welcome ~

Of course. Even if some of us are dingdongs we can all have fun. Good to see you're happy and the like.~

Jack, I am sad to say that I used to be like one of the people who almost broke you. ;.; I was being absolutely horrible to my father, but thankfully we have resolved this and I am trying to mend the fence between my dad, and my mother and sister. So, I am sorry, and if you need a stupid goofball, i'm around in the afternoon.

Awww.... Poor Jackie. Don't worry, you deserved someone better. Maybe, she is really not the one. Don't worry, life is full of surprises. You won't know what will come. So stay strong Jackie! We, the New Arcana family, will always be here for you.

*Super highfives Jack-bro*
Always. *Manly tears*