I'll keep this short...

Posts : 2877 Join date : 2014-12-26 Age : 26

As I am 100% sure, you've all heard what's happened yesterday and I don't want to sound dramatic so I'm just going to keep this short.

Aya killed Frog yesterday. Or well, maybe not, who knows. I've stopped having expectations. But that's fine, because it's IC. I don't care as I've even laughed at the post while reading it because it was so overkill.

But then the chatbox happened and the OOC came, I've been made to feel like everybody was just waiting for this to happen and now that it has, it was time for a party (the box was cleared twice and I don't have copypastas of it, because really it didn't even occur to me to copy it). I felt unwelcome, in one word, and I am set never to forgive any of you for it. It made me feel like I'm not worth the position of a WC, like none of you actually wanted me to occupy it. Rita and Jack know best how touchy I am regarding this particular topic of me being the Wild Card, especially with how awkward I'm already feeling in this role because I fear everybody has expectations even without all of you throwing it in my face that I'm not good enough. I know I certainly have given you reason enough to hate me and my IC decisions, even though we've just started with the goddamn plot. Then again, Gran has also just screwed us out of an IC decision, so yeah (not because I'm probably dead but because only 1 person got to act against the boss this turn).

Anyways, I'm not here to spread hate by making comparisons and childish blame-games, but I still had to because I am a spoiled brat. Other than that, I'm here to rest my case because of how upset the whole situation made me. In short, I'm not pissed at Gran because he killed me. I'm pissed at all of you for fawning over the event like the goose just nested a solid gold egg.

Don't expect to see much of me in the chatbox anymore and certainly don't expect me to ask for permission or worry anymore about what I do IC, with Frog or with any other character.

So long.

p.s. The text is green because I want to make your eyes bleed out <3

Subject: Re: I'll keep this short... Wed Sep 21, 2016 12:53 pm

I'm sure this apology will come off as hollow, but I'm truly sorry. It wasn't my intent to make you feel like that and I don't think it was anyone else's either. I think you made a great WC and even though I doubted Frogerio at first you really ended up selling on the character rather early on. I was eager to see his interactions with Shiina, his growth, how he'd handle the situations he came across in plot missions, etc. Overall I believe he was a fantastic representative of Chaos.

I would have laughed if this occurred to anyone. Frogerio was not a special case -- he was the example, not the exception. It wouldn't even matter if it was one of my characters: hell, I probably would have found it MORE amusing if Miyuki, or Cecilia, or even Azami bit the dust that day. As a reader, I can understand the pain of a character dear to you dying, but as a writer or a roleplayer I cannot. That's well-and-dandy, of course, but I shouldn't have assumed you feel the same as I do about character death. It was my mistake: I got caught up in the moment and made light of a subject without thinking first. And for that, I will reiterate, I am sorry.

If staff wishes to lay down a punishment or make an example of someone then I'll gladly accept whatever repercussions they come up with. Otherwise, this apology is all I can offer. I never intended to hurt your feelings or make you feel unwelcome Frog and I will not ask for your forgiveness: you have a right to be upset with me. I just hope this'll all die down soon and things can go back to normal.